brenda's whirlpool

moved

2008-11-01T00:22:00.002+08:00

EXTRA EXTRA!! HEAR ALL ABOUT IT!

I HAVE MOVED TO http://chikachacha.jugem.jp!!

relink me plox!

XD

yeap, i got tired of blogger. HO HO HO

WHOOO CHRISTMAS!

2008-10-31T01:36:00.004+08:00

COUNTDOWN TO CHRISTMAS

56 FREAKING DAYS!!

it is not far it is not far...=)

YAY!!

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!

EHWDHASKD
LKAJDLKASJDASKLJD
LSAJDLAKJDKJAL

WHOOOOOOOOO CHRISTMAS~!

ok, that was super random and super crazy. thanks to shinn who reminded me, i shall countdown to christmas from today onwards.

WHOOOOOOOOOOO CHRISTMASSSSSSSSS

HAPPYEXCITEDANXIOUSCURIOUSANTICIPATION!!!

*runs around the room in circles*

=)

BOOOOORRRRRIIINNNNNGGG

2008-10-31T00:28:00.003+08:00

nothing much today. went to school. helped out and have fun. bro's addicted to DJ max...

yeap, i think that is about it. life's pretty dull eh? my holidays are equal to nada. i still have to visit rp almost everyday like i fell in love with it. which i am totally NOT! =.=

sentimental times=sentimental talks. i am jealous, yes that is what i am feeling now. i'm not blaming anyone. it is just not my luck. =)

I AM GETTING BORING

BORING

BORING

BORRRRRRRIIIIIIIINNNNNNNGGGG~

ok i shall not blog no more before you all get to bored and start throwing rotten eggs at me

kbye

*RUNS*

2008-10-30T00:07:00.002+08:00

why can't i just let go ?

i am feeling so stressed now. why can't you all just see? can you all just leave me alone.

stop asking me for commitment. stop asking me whether i can be yours. come on, i am really damn pressurized over a lot of things. it is just not time for all these ok?

you all are really really very nice people. the problem lies with me ok? and i don't even think i deserve to choose.

oh fark. i feel like a total utter disgusting bitch posting this here. it is just that i can't take it anymore ok? i have never been able to sort these kind of things out. i am just afraid of being attached ok? i can't explain why so don't ask. it is just something i just can't seem to overcome. it is a barrier that i think i will never be able to get rid. i most probably will die all alone because of this but I JUST CAN'T HELP IT.

ARGH CRAP.DAMN IT BRENDA. YOU SUCK BIG TIME. JUST GO AND FIND SOME RANDOM WALL AND KILL YOURSELF. YOU DON'T DESERVE ANY CARE AND CONCERN. NOT TO SAY SOMEONE TO LOVE.

go away people. leave me alone. i don't deserve it.

BORED

2008-10-28T00:22:00.007+08:00

sometimes things just can't be explained

"is there a regulation for people to blog everyday? i think some of us are getting over obsessed over readers. some times we even rack our brains hard just to get something to post about. Many of times defeats the purpose.

i realized that times in which you really want to blog are times when you are really filled with umpteen feelings where we have no idea where to pour out to.

so where does all these go to? our best friend right here.

this is the only place you can vent your anger or disappointment without upfront confrontation and sometimes earn yourself some comforting. But watch your words people. whatever you say might just cause a flame war or something much more serious."

argh crap. why am i saying all those rubbish up there? getting too sendimental? i guess so.

holidays are here. i low sounded "whoopee~"

frankly, isn't much of an excitment. what can we all do? most probably sit around the house and laze. Luckier ones would be out there enjoying time with their peers but how many are that lucky? haha.

life suddenly seems boring to me. i see no goal in life. "OPEN A WEDDING BOUTIQUE!", bullshit, i see that dream drifting further and further away from me.

"HAVING A NICE FAMILY OF 4 AND A LOVING HUSBAND!" erm. no comments. LOL

argh. CRAP CRAP CRAP. I AM SO FULL OF CRAP.

you know why? answer the mcq question below.

1) chika's bored
2) chika's bonkers
3) chika's wants attention
4) all of the above

the answer's quite obvious right?

ok, i am in my own CRAZY world again.

SOMEONE JUST PLEASE TAKE ME AWAY TO SOME PARADISE WHERE I CAN MAKE SUSHI AND EAT EVERYDAY??

ok, random. BYE! heees ^^

tags replies

2008-10-26T10:59:00.003+08:00

fine fine, i shall reply my tags now here. haha

but,

i don't know where to start man! that is for not replying tags for such a long time. hmmm. i guess i shall just included people who tagged me and just say a little something about them. wouldn't that be something to find out! HO HO HO

no worries, i am a nice person. =)

*starting from the person who tagged me first after my last replies of tags*

KiSa: walao. the most chak chak girl i have ever met. LOL! just kidding. :D my best friend in poly. my little sister. digs Japanese culture, loves archery, well loved by GUYS *hints hints* and hell of a late comer. but i still love her. awwww *hugs*

Yi Quan: i remember you asking me the exact question last night. What do i think of you. Hmm. seriously, i think you are a nice guy. really caring LIKE AN UNCLE! but i appreciate it. HO HO HO. more of a family type of guy i guess? haha. I REPLIED YOU LE HOR! DON'T SAY I NEVER!! LOL

FYQ: hmm. rock climber. loads of self confidence. loves to dance. LOL really nice person to talk to when you are down. always there for me when i need someone.can tell him almost everything. thanks syafiq, you are really the best. =)

Azmi: woah tall and built guy. rock climbing star. 3rd seh. haha. likes to play pranks though. nice person. =)

ivy: MY LOVELY SENIOR FROM SECONDARY SCHOOL! damn cool girl. LOOOOOVE her creativity. XD really loving and fun person to be with. but i don't see or talk to you often le. T.T

estelle: ONE HELL OF A VULGAR GIRL! but definitely in a good way. YAY! :D she is those type of girl that scolds "NABEI" and makes it sound SOOOOOO cool you just want to scold along with her. LOL! loves DIY and making bangles. REAL AWWWWWWWWESOME person. oh one thing to add, i love her blog. =)

nao: WOOOOOOOO~! one word. CHIO CHIO CHIO!!!!! really nice girl. so sweet. HEE HEE XD loads of friends and nice personality. happy to have her as a friend. =) ALL THE BEST FOR MATHS PAPER 2!! GANBATTE NAOMI CHAN!! :D

eda: CRAZZZZZZZZIEST GIRL I EVER MET! but never ending fun! =) always never come to school one. HUMPH! LOL

Andy: Thanks for the compliment. :D this guy ah, have not spoken to him in the LOOOOOONGEST time. no comments man. don't really know him well. opps. LOL!

i hope you all won't blame me for not replying my tags. i am a hell load of a lazy bum. but i hope this post satisfies you all. will reply tags from now on! YAY! XD

the miracle remedy

2008-10-24T22:15:00.007+08:00

ever had THE flu before?

yeap, the flu that leaves you with irritating coughs, blazing sore throats, tap running nose, flaming fevers and bone aching pains?

yeap, that is what i am going through now. and all these are making me super SAD!

i know, pardon the ugliness. :X

but fear no more!! CAUSE THE MIRICLE REMEDY IS HERE!! TENG TENG TENG TENG~

PRESENTING THE MIRICLE REMEDY!!

IT REALLY WORKS LA! SERIOUS!

ok, it kind of looks really black in the pictures but it isn't bad in taste at all! in fact, it kinda taste nice. :D i made me feel so much better after drinking it. IT SERIOUSLY WORKS!! MUST BELIEVE ME!!

but i was forced to drink 4 teapots full of it and now i am best friend with the toilet bowl. LOL! so next time when you are down with flu, come to be and try the miricle remedy. my charges are cheap, only $50 per cup only. HOO HOO HOO. just kidding, XP. i won't charge any money for that la. haha. so long if you get well drinking it i will be happy already. :D

i am really very thankful to all those who are so concerned for me. THANK YOU SO MUCH MAN!! i am so touched! T3T I LOVE YOU ALL AND I PROMISE TO TAKE GOOD CARE OF MYSELF!! ^^

i have the sudden urge to go completely bonkers again. Like do something REEEEALLY crazy. HAHA. but i guess i would have to wait till i am feeling better. Any crazy kar kees wants to join me? please email me at brendalicious1608@live.com for more details. LOL! may be we can plan to burn RP down. ROFL!!!

ok, maybe not. i don't want to squat in jail for the rest of my life. HOO HOO. XP

alright, that's all for today! stay tune for more crazy theroies, recommendations, random thoughts of chika.

BYE BYE PEOPLE! :D

P.S. i hope those who took O levels maths today did well and pass with flying colors. =)

i am sick

2008-10-23T23:20:00.004+08:00

to start off,

ALL THE BEST TO ALL RETAKING OR TAKING O LEVEL MATHS TOMORROW!

you all have chika mentally supporting you all ALLLLLLLLLLLL they way. XD i will pray for you all from 8 am on wards. PASS MUST THANK ME HOR!!

LOL! bhb sia. =.=

i am sick again, as usual. haha. I WANT MY GRANDPA'S MIRACLE REMEDY!! but he is sleeping already and can't make any for me. =(

i wanted to blog just now before i cam back home. Had the sudden urge to blog. but after i reached home and switched on my computer, i suddenly did not have the mood to do so anymore. maybe cause i thought the post was quite unnecessary. No need to note that down. haha.

ok ok, i think i better go to bed before people start nagging at me again. UNCLE, I GOING TO SLEEP SOON LE HOR. DON'T SAY I NEVER GO SLEEP!!

my post are getting more and more boring as the day passes. My readers, i think it is high time for you switch to another blog for entertainment. cause mine is not providing you with any. haha.

BYE BYE READERS. =(

all the best peeps!

2008-10-22T23:06:00.010+08:00

i am dedicating this post to my beloved, KISA....

ok, time out. THAT SOUNDED SO WRONG AND TOO SENTIMENTAL. HAHA. shall use the causul way to bring this across.

OI CHARIS CHIA HUI XIAN!! I GOT WISH YOU HOR!! BETTER DO WELL OR I WILL SMMMMMACK YOUR ARSE HARD MAN!! LOL!!

This chak chak ah, did not even get her ten years series until recently la. I don't even know whether she really got it a not man. make me so worried la. But seeing her so hardworking nowadays i also happy. I REALLY FEEL LIKE HER OLDER SIS LA! wth. bhb. -.-"

Nevertheless, i still love her. *HUGGIES* o(^.^)o

don't worry about the rest not wishing you, got your SHEN wish you can le right. CONFIRM PASS AH!! ROFL!! =.=" my predictions 80% right de hor! DON'T PR-LAY PR-LAY! *PCK STYLE*

If you pass i ching you eat ajisan ok? JIA YOU HOR! if not you treat me. MUHAHAHAHA! ok? STEADY AH! >=D

Haiya, just pass ok? or else a lot of people will get disappointed la. JIA YOU JIA YOU JIA YOU!! GAMBETTE KISA CHAN!!

and all the best to all my other friends that are retaking. ALL PASS ALL HAPPY!!

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i just love the look of life now. i am happy, you are happy, everyone's happy.
Leaving home was not a bad idea afterall. although i miss my mum like hell much, it kind of solves a lot of troubles.
I am starting to forget how a quarrel sounds like already.
i like the peace i am getting now.
i treasure it.
so do you guys right?
i love my family but i hate conflicts.
i really hope that there will be the day where we can finally be back together with laughter not tears.
and i believe that that day is arriving soon and it really makes my feelings fly.
the only worry now,
is my health....

over the rainbow

2008-10-21T21:52:00.004+08:00

Dreams Of Stars And Rainbows by ~FadingBlack on deviant ART

"Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high,
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby.
Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue,
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.

Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly.
Birds fly over the rainbow.
Why then, oh why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?"

looking at the birds up high, i sometimes wonder, wouldn't it be nice to be able to fly for once? without the help of airplanes, without the help of helicopters. Just me and only me, soaring through the open space way above us. I would feel the wind gentling caressing my face and the clouds cradling me. i would fly around the world visiting people who needs me. i would love to spread my love all over the earth.

how i wish i could fly. over the rainbow, over the seas. what would be like to see life from way above? i wonder.

i want to sing the song above out loud. i want to dance to the tune. i want to share it with everybody. i want every one to know.

that life is short, smile while you can. i strongly believe i would be ok and so would everyone out there.

GANBATE PEOPLE! live life to the fullest. =)

webcam

2008-10-20T22:30:00.004+08:00

Every single time i open this particular webpage for me to blog about my life, i get super bored and suddenly lost for words. i have so many things to talk about, so many things to discuss but i just stare blankly into that empty space for you to type not knowing how or where to start.

guess i am a boring and undesirable blogger who bore people out of their socks. LOL. i shall post some photos of my webcaming up now and then go to sleep. i really need it man.

HAHA! YOU OWNED ME IN YOUR BLOG I OWN YOU IN MINE!! SUPER AI MEI GUY!! LOL!

yeap, no pictures of me. better not scare you all with my disgusting face. LOL!

ok guys, i really need to go to sleep cause my eye lids are hovering my eyes when i am typing this. NIGHTS PEOPLE!

P.S. is it that difficult to live a normal, HEALTHY life?

steamboat

2008-10-19T08:37:00.004+08:00

whooo haaaaaa

i am up so early in the morning on a wonderful sunday. Can't help it, i have my commitments. haha.

followed kisa to support her god brother kesh yesterday at the central clake quay. first time i saw him. look like girl la. ^^ll Saw kaoru and gang too. Feel so weird to be interacting with them. Cause they totally don't know about my existence although i know theirs. Talking to them seem so unreal. haha. XP but i guess they are nice people. ^^V

went for steamboat after. the same place where kevin and the rest of us always go. THE PLACE IS REALLY STEAMING HOT LA! i guess that is normal right?looking at the fact that we are eating steamboat. =.= surprisingly, i was not at all full after eating the steamboat la. they are really very small eaters man. normally if kevin and gang goes, they at least go 5 rounds or more. HEE HEE ^^ll so i came back home still feeling acutely hungry. LOL! or maybe i am just a big eater? HAHA.

i did take photos of some scenery at clark quay. but i did not take any photos of steamboating time. So i guess you all want to take a peep of how the eating looks like, please proceed to www.watashiwa-kisa-desu.blogspot.com. yes people, i am a lazy person and i don't deserve buying a camera at all. cause i am always so lazy to take photos. BUT I PROMISE I WILL IF I HAVE A CAMERA!

oh boy, i should really stop all these fantasies of buying more things. i have already spent a lot these few months. shall spend no more!! KEMPATE CHIKA DESU! =.=

random thought: ALL I WANT FOR CHIRSTMAS IS MY 2 FRONT TEETH, MY 2 FRONT TEETH, YEAH MY 2 FRONT TEETH!

CHIRSTMAS IS COMING CHIRSTMAS IS COMING CHIRSTMAS IS COMING!! YAY!!

ok, it is still far away but i feel that is near la! WHEEEEEE!~ I LOVE CHIRSTMAS!!!! LALALALALALA~ =)

ok i shall stop here before i get even later for my practice cause i am already late. But permission granted cause i kind of fell a little ill after steamboat last night? i already had a slight sore throat and i guess it made it worse. =.=" I KNOW! i shall ask grandpa to make me a pot of his chinese tea. EH DON'T PLAY PLAY LOH! THIS POT OF TEA IS A MIRCLE REMEDY OK! i drank a pot yesterday before i left house and felt almost healthy at once loh! I NEVER BLUFF YOU ALL SOMPA! next time i shall post an entry on it. HAHA.

"THE ALMIGHTY MIRCLE REMEDY!" :D:D

haiya, see first ba. maybe ii is too boring a topic to blog about. HAHA! and provided i don't get lazy again like i did 9128574812371297 times before. HAHA. ok, i really had to run. I AM FREAKING LATE! and i have not even bathe. >.<

gtg people. BYE!

P.S. still no one sporting enough to do my challenge. =( i am serious la about the treat....

please stop it

2008-10-17T21:47:00.005+08:00

nobody bothered about my challenge la. nobody sporting enough to bother about it. =(

life's boring so i won't mention about it. it's school school and more school.

*PORTION DELETED CAUSE I THINK IT ISN'T VERY APPROPRIATE. MISSED IT? TOO BAD*

many thanks to shawn the special one! lol. i can't believe the person who sat through my rantings would be him and surprisingly, he gives amazing advices! oh man shawn, you are really wired wrongly. but in a good way sometimes. =). i know it is really weird to talk about these things to a guy la. cause it is kind of sensitive and all vulgar? however talking to shawn is like talking to that Alan A. Allen guy in thunderpants. gives great ideas but not a bit of danger involved. like a really smart little kid. HAHA.

oh ya, i am changing my url really very soon. it is going to be www.phenomena-chika.blogspot.com. i am trying to do those template that allows you to type my previous url and get directed to a site that would then direct you to my new url. is there anyway to do that? i have the template for the directing site ready. but i don't know how to actually do it. is there anyone nice enough out there to help? thanks =)

another random fact before i go, i love W35E even if we don't normally talk anymore. :D :D

random thoughts

2008-10-16T00:44:00.002+08:00

i am officially flunking maths tomorrow

screw calculations. ZZZ

i am urged loads of times to thank him so i will do it here now. THANK YOU YI QUAN FOR TEACHING ME MATHS. can? lol. chak chak leh him. so bhb. HAHA

i want to go japan!! JAPAN!!~~ i want to go there and eat loads and loads of sushi and sashimi!! WHEEEEEE~ ok, ignore me and my materialistic desire. the economy is falling drastically so i guess this dream would not come true in the near future. LOL.

i wanted to do tag replies here but i realised it was too late already. i better go to sleep before i oversleep tomorrow's UT. sigh.

so good night people, sleep tight. i am still waiting for the your photos on reliving childhood! i seriously would treat you all i promise! =)=)

hallehluyah relive childhood!

2008-10-15T18:45:00.006+08:00

i did not go to school again. yes, yes, this is the don't know how many times i did not go to school already.sigh.

seriously, i think i am going to die earlier than any of you here. i am always falling sick even if i put in so much effort to keep myself healthy. may be by then i would really be able to sprout wings and fly. HO HO HO crap. i want to be healthy like everyone else. =(

see my previous post about having babies? i really afraid that i can't get any la. cause i really like babies! T3T. i saw some toddlers when i went to seek the doctor today. AWW SO CUTE!!! one even came over and offer me a biscuit. my heart melted at once la. >.<

ok, please pardon my raging maternal instincts. it was a little disturbing. hmmm. I WANT TO PUT ON WEIGHT. i am freaking slightly underweight i don't want that. i look like a bamboo walking around all my friends. so tall and so SKINNY. argh. anyone interested in fat donation? please phone this number, 9XXXXXX. do yourself some good and slim down at the same time. XD

argh. random thoughts random thoughts random thoughts. my mind is freaking filled with random thoughts. screw these random thoughts. it is driving me crazy. @_@ i really think of the craziest things you all cannot imagine like would i walk on the streets tomorrow and meet osama bin ladin? or would some random company call me up and ask me to be their ceo. ok, i know i am nuts please don't remind me. LOL.

i miss my childhood. i miss watching

sesame street, lalalala, lalalala, elmo's world!

teletubies,

powerpuff girls, i simply love bubble and the professer. cause they are so stupid till they are adorable. >=)

pokemon, I LOVE PIKACHU!!

flintstones, YA BE YA BE DO!

cat dog,

digimon,

hello kitty,

hamtaro, I JUST LOVE THEM TO DEATH!! an i want a hamster. >.< since i can't have a dog. :X

johny bravo, i swear this is one of the STUPIDEST cartoon ever been shown on cable tv. watch it and you will know

and SHIN CHAN! it really provided me with so much laughter i always thought i would laugh my stomach out. LOL!

oh man people, can we stop growing up? lets all relive our childhood and indulge ourselves with the innocent and genuine happiness we use to get from stupid activities and these cartoons.

hey! why don't we have a contest? lets all take pictures of us reliving childhood and the winner i would treat him/her! what do you all think? worth a try? just take a photo of yourself and post it on your blogs. the best would be picked by yours truely. i promise, i won't be bias! :D

come on people, be sporting. =)

the super cui and buang self proclaimed bitch

2008-10-14T23:15:00.004+08:00

i am so shagged and deprived of sleep. my dark eyes are so jialat it is already reaching puking state looking at the fact that i am already so cui and buang. haha.

so look here guys, don't be misleaded by my dp, cause you can never believe whatever you see on the net. it is a fact that i look very much worse in real life. a random girl that you won't consider hot or cute. maybe a playing tool for a while only? LOL.

but i don't farking care cause i don't live for guys. like i mentioned in one of my previous posts, i don't see a nessecity for the existence of guys la. ok, i am crapping cause i do in fact want to get married and give birth to loads of children. :D

ok, not that many la but i still would love to have children! =) THEY ARE SO CUTE LA. ARGHHH. i know that they will only be cute when they are young. but i believe i am able to teach them well so that they go astray. :X so bhb. -.-

haha.

ok, i am going to sleep soon before my dark eyes worsen. by then you can call me the huang lian po chika ready. ZZZ

haha. nights everybody. =)

i need sleep

2008-10-13T23:34:00.003+08:00

I AM SO DAMN SLEEPY!!

i keep thinking of,

i seriously need sleep.

something is very wrong with my body nowadays. i often have lower abdomen pains and cramps so bad till i can't even sit or stand straight.

the attacks used to be lesser but are more frequent reacently. sigh. i guess i really have to visit the polyclinic very soon.

wish me luck people.

paranoid

2008-10-12T21:17:00.010+08:00

am so addicted to charis's blog song utada hikaru-first love. the melody is so nice la! so after getting permission from her, i have it as my blog song now.

LOL! XP

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i am really grateful for all the concern showered on me today regarding the previous blog post. was feeling a little better but there is still a whole big part of me that fills really empty. if only

i just want everybody to be happy. i should be happy too cause i really feel so guilty having my cherished ones being so worried about me.

thanks again everybody who bothered to stop by and care. i just need time. loads of time.

one step away from achieving zen

lol

i think something went wrong with my wires today. -.-

好累

2008-10-12T07:23:00.007+08:00

it is freaking 7.23 in the morning now and i am up with a troubled heart.

i have never felt so bad for the longest of time already. i am really too stressed to even be bothered with you but you haunt me. i am really very afraid of it this time. i really have no idea where did i gather the courage to confess the last time but i am very sure that that was the LAST time i am ever going to do that. it embarrassed the shit out of me.

but today, when i face you, i have no idea what to do. you are so, different. i really cannot decipher what are your thoughts. are you really true to me or are you a fraud, here to play with my feelings and hurt me upside down. i keep having thoughts of losing you but i really am afraid of committing.i remember you once asked me why no? the reason? i don't think it will last. we don't know too much of each other. we are people from utterly different worlds.

oh lord, why must these things bring me down? am i too weak to even block away unnecessary heartache? i really feel so stupid and stressed up at so many things i think my hair is going to fall tremendously anytime. i am seriously getting to sleep late and waking up super early cause thoughts follows me and deprive me of my sleep almost ever night.

i need my sleep.

i have no idea how long can i sustain on already. i am really tired of a lot of things in life. i am tired of trying to hold on to the crumbling family bond. i am tired of sustaining current friendship. i am tired of worrying about my health. i am tired of making new friends. i am tired of worrying for people i love and care about and i am tired of thinking of you.

let all these go to rest ba. i shall go on with life as per normal but in half hibernation mode. don't even bother to try and make me smile or laugh. you may just get it but deep down in my heart, i know that i am not happy.

这种痛苦是难以理解的，我真的好累好累。。

2008-10-12T01:34:00.001+08:00

i am feeling damn hurt inside but i don't know the exact reason.

damn.

i am seriously having a nervous breakdown

2008-10-11T23:29:00.003+08:00

my previous intent was to blog about my second time watching MA MA MIA! and how much i freaking love the show and am going to buy the dvd when it is released and watch it another 9739574845793479357239 times.

but i just suddenly got emo and decided not to do that.

i am thrown to make a decision now. but as you all don't know. i hate making decisions like this. don't ask me what decision is it cause i most prolly won't tell so don't bother. :X

i don't see why guys must be so practical. BIG BOOBS GOOD MEH!? GOT MONEY ALSO CANNOT PICK UP LA. WTF. YOU WANT BIG BOOBS THEN SORRY YOU CAN'T GET THEM HERE. SO FUCK OFF

OH MAN I AM SO DAMN PISSED.

ARGH. I HATE FEELING SO HELPLESS WHEN I KNOW I AM ABLE TO SOLVE EVERYTHING WITH ONE DECISION. BUT I JUST.CAN'T.MAKE.IT.

FUCK

#*&^$!@(^!@^$

AND I AM SERIOUSLY GETTING MORE AND MORE PISSED AT GUYS. I REALLY CAN'T SEEM TO TRUST ANY ALREADY LA. THEY EITHER MAKE YOU SAD OR DAMN PISSED OFF. YOU CANNOT TOTALLY TRUST THEM AND YOU CANNOT TOTALLY RELY ON THEM. WHY MUST GIRLS RELY ON GUYS TO REPRODUCE IN THE FIRST PLACE? IF NOT THERE IS NO NEED FOR GUYS AT ALL AND ALL WOULD BE HALLELUYAH THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

oh my tian. i am seriously turning les. cause i suddenly fucking hate guys now. they are nothing but trouble. damn.

P.S. pardon my colorful words. i mass spam fuck when i am damn pissed.

I FEEL SO STUPID

untitled

2008-10-11T00:07:00.001+08:00

charis just sent me an edited photo of yours truly

was taken on the day i went to buy my lost charger and a whole lot of different things to protect my pathetic macbook. if you people know me and my macbook, you all should know that my macbook is called the brown book. it was freaking dirty. DON'T STEROTYPE ME HOR! I AM NOT ALWAYS A DIRTY PERSON OK!

*SHOOTS A DEADLY LOOK*

here goes nothing..

i thought i look like a hooker la with those fake eye leashes la. -.-

THANKS AH CHARIS! -.-

when name calling isn't swearing

2008-10-10T12:08:00.007+08:00

haha. i was requested to credit somebody. so i hereby present yi quan a trophy of appreciation.

i know, it is really ugly.but i really have no idea how to use the paintbrush application in my mac os. hope this is ok. >.<

I GAVE YOU YOUR TROPHY LE HOR YI QUAN!!

>:Z

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HO HO HO.

i just recieved this really interesting email this morning. thanks zupeng for sending this to me. it really cracked me up. ok, just as a little warning to all, the below images are under the M18 category. read at your own risk. HAHA.

When Name Calling Isn't Swearing!

enjoy. =)

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tag replies...

FYQ: thanks man. it was a random theory that came from kisa and me. thought i would be really fun to post it up so there you go! LOL!

angelx: YO! PEY GEOK! WELCOME! =) =) like your pic with joanna? YOU ARE SO PHOTOGENIC!!

KiSa: HO HO HO! yeap, i just lumped everything together and put it as a phrase. cause i forgot to save the msn conversation. sorry! >.<

ivy: hi ivy! LOL! that one was basically a term to describe myself la. i was just trying to be mean dragging others in too. :X SORRY! >.<

YiQuan: EH EH EH! PERMISSION GRANTED OK! and this is not considered a lot loh! the last time i played with my girlfriends it was much much more ok! LOL! should thank me for making you famous man! YI QUAN THE APPLE FREAK ROUK!! ROFL!! XD

S.O.S

2008-10-10T00:08:00.001+08:00

HELP! I AM TRYING TO CHANGE MY TEXT ALIGNMENT TO JUSTIFY BUT I JUST CAN'T GET IT!

anybody pro enough to help me?

thank you so much. =)

a pretty boring life

2008-10-09T23:26:00.014+08:00

ok, i'm back to blog

school is pretty boring. coming into the same room, seeing the same faces over and over again. it is almost like a life threatening routine already. boredom can knock right at your door and kill you.

ZZZ

i realized i have not been blogging like these for a very very long time already. Nope, i was blogging like a total bimbo that bore people out of their socks with their all so bitchy posts. Have not been so serious for the longest of times. haha.

not that i am pretty. so i guess i don't fall into the bimbo category? maybe i shall create a whole new term to call people like myself. hmm. how about chimpo? girls with faces like a chimpanzee but still act like an utter bimbo. lol

ok, that was mean. pardon me. haha.

was so freaking bored in class so i started video calling yiquan. oh man i have no idea video caming was so fun. i guess that’s why it was invented in the first place?
-_________-. took a couple of pictures of him. was majorly threatened not to post it up on my blog.

but we made a deal ok! if i sleep before 1 am today, permission granted. so i guess after this post i really have to go to sleep.

so here is the face of the guy that kept my entertained the whole day. yeap, i edited my photo away cause i thought it was unnecessary. so just settle in with his face only ok?haha.

these are taken by my phone so pardon the quality. >.<

ok, maybe i shall post up a few with my face in. hmmm.

haha! I AM GOING TO KILL HIM WITH A PARANG!! LOL!

and yeap, i did some random photo taking again,

PEY GOEK AND JOANNA!

i seriously hope bruce does not kill me for this. people, please don't sabo me. this is just for pure entertainment. >.<

cheryl and me!

ok, that’s all folks. don't go back and cry for your ma ma for more!

haha. just kidding. =)

P.S. hey babe, take care alright?

crap

2008-10-07T22:53:00.004+08:00

"love is a ****ing nonsense that cannot be explained but make us fall madly for"

- famous crapper brenda koo qiao hui

the new born GazettE fan

2008-10-05T22:44:00.002+08:00

i think i have officially fell in love with the GazettE

ok ok

i know i know

i am super behind time

but so what?

but late then none right??

LOL

i used to think visual kei was kind of weird and scary

but charis, you are right

the more you see them, the more you will fall in love

MUHAHAHA

I AM LIKE REPEATING the GazettE SONGS OVER AND OVER AGAIN LA!

oh my.

hey the GazettE,

say hello to your new born fan

=)

self-proclaimed bitch

2008-10-05T00:47:00.002+08:00

HAHA!

CHIKA THE SELF PROCLAIMED BITCH!

HAHAHAHA!

maybe should put that as my url

www.theselfproclaimedbitch.blogspot.com

HAHA!

i think i am officially bonkers.

XD

pimp?

2008-10-04T22:50:00.005+08:00

this will be a short post cause i am feeling uber lazy

i got loads of pictures to post up

but my phone is at the repairs and my memory card cannot be read by other phones

sigh

I MISS MY PHONE!! =(

i was thinking of pimping my phone with crystals

but after my attempt on my ipod,

i am really not confident man

cause my ipod was an epic F.A.I.L.U.R.E

so should i?

hmmm

syafiq suggested that i buy a crystal case and pimp that

haha

good idea man. =D

but it would really take time la

and it may seem very bimbotic to have all these bling blings

haha

but they are really nice la!~

so so so

should i should i??

can give me some suggestions on my tag board.

=)

but hor,

every time i ask for some suggestions and comments,

nobody bother one loh

>.<

the lack of things to blog about

2008-10-04T00:06:00.002+08:00

i want to blog about something

but i really don't know how to put it in words

charis may know what i am talking about

haha

=)

i don't dare to leh.

haha

I WANT TO BLOG I WANT TO BLOG I WANT TO BLOG

BUT BUT

i don't know what to blog about man

haha

now my situation is like you really want to drink strawberry milkshake

but there is no milk in your fridge

haha

HOW HOW??

haha

why don't you all post a question to me and i post about it?

wouldn't it be fun?

haha

SO I'LL BE WAITING~!

X)

keeps getting better

2008-10-03T16:38:00.007+08:00

*update*

i was tagged to do this quiz a few times already

only i was too lazy to bother

and since i am so free and bored now

i shall give syazi some face and do his

cause he was so sweet to do my name up with the heart emoticon

so here goes..

1 ) The last person who tagged you is:
SYAZI SYAZ WAN ALAN

2 ) Your relationship with him / her is :
a very nice to talk to friend =)

3 ) Your impressions on him / her is :
tall tall AND TALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

4 )The most memorable thing he / she had done for you :
he just did my name out of heart emoticons. :D

5 )The most memorable thing he / she said to you :
eh. i fell asleep on my keyboard? LOL! CLASSIC! XD

6 ) if he / she becomes your lover you will :
hmmm. never thought of it man. i will ask him to grow shorter! ROFL!!

7 ) If he / she becomes your lover , thing he / she has to improve on will be :
eh. not sure about. i think he is just fine. =)

8 ) if he / she becomes your enemy , the reason will be :
he won't be. right? :X

9 ) the most desired thing you wanna do for him / her now is :
try and make his name in flower emoticon which i doubt i can do it. T3T

10 ) your overall impression on him / her is :
T.A.L.L and deprived of sleep. HAHA! XD

11 ) how you think people around you feel about you :
think too much. chao lao >.<

12 ) the character you love about yourself is :
my random nonsenses =D

13 ) on the contary , the character you hate about yourself is :
being too emotional >.<

14 ) the most ideal person you wanna be is :
i want to be...........IMPROVED

15 ) pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you :
1) SYAZI SYAZ WAN ALAN
2) charis
3) cheryl
4) angeline
5) kaiboon (but he is in tekong lei. -.-)
6) estelle
7) vincent
8) syafiq
9) qunhui
10) ralph

16 ) who’s no.6 having a relationship with?
*estelle* no. BUT SHE GOT US!! WHOOTS! XD

17 ) is no.9 a male or a female?
*Qunhui* female. DUH~

18 ) if no.7 and no.10 are together , will it be a good thing?
*vincent and ralph* I WILL LAUGH UNTIL PENG!!HAHAHHAHA

19 ) how about no.8 and 5 ?
*syafiq and kaiboon* i think they both prefer females. HAHAHAHHAHA!

20 ) what is no.2 studying about?
*charis* material science but desires an ART or MEDIA course =)

21 ) when was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
*cheryl* yesterday i guess. cause i did not go to school today. >.<

22 ) what music band does no.8 like?
*syafiq* hey. i am not sure man. MCR?

23 ) Does no.1 have any siblings ?
*SYAZI SYAZ WAN ALAN* haha. nope i guess. got to know it
from his quiz answer. haha

24 ) will you woo no.3 ?
*cheryl* she is taken. someone will kill me if i do. LOL! >.<

25 ) how bout no.7?
*vincent* to speak the truth, i will if i can. LOL! >.<
but he is my bestie and we all know i won't. XP

27 ) whats the surname of no.5?
*kaiboon* LAU LAU MA LAU!! LAU KAI BOON!! HAHA!

28 ) whats the hobby of no.4?
*angeline* singing? you know i can't smile without you~ X)

29 ) do no.5 and 9 get along?
*kaiboon and qunhui* hmm. i guess? :X

30 ) where is no.2 studying at?
*charis*REPUBLIC POLYTECHIC WITH ME!! WHOOTS! :D

31 ) talk something casually about no.1?
*SYAZI SYAZ WAN ALAN* HEY YOU DOPE STOP FALLING ASLEEP ON YOUR KEYBOARD!
LOL! just kidding. =)

32 ) have you tried to develop feeling for no.8?
*syafiq* i really have no comment on that

33 ) where does no.9 live at?
*qunhui* pasir ris! i know where is her block and unit too. HEE HEE XD

34 ) what colour does no.4 like?
*angeline* oh man. i don't know man. i shall ask her the next time i talk to her. ;)

35 ) are no.1 and 5 best friends?
*SYAZI SYAZ WAN ALAN and kaiboon* hmm. i don't think they even met! :X

36 ) does no.7 like no.2?
*vincent and charis* don't think so.
but i know no. 2 would really want that to happen. HOO HOO. opps. XP

37 ) how do you get to know no.2?
*charis* she is my best friend in W35E man! =)

38 ) does no.1 have any pets?
*SYAZI SYAZ WAN ALAN* not sure. does he want one? haha

39 ) is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
*vincent* sexy definately. im sure charis will agree with me. XD

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did not go to school today

was down with flu.

=)

changed my blog song to Christina aguilera's latest song

keeps getting better.

nice?

HOO HOO HOO

SHE IS THE BEST LA!!!!

LOOOOVVVVVEEEE($*@#(*$(~~~ HER VOICE!!

i kind of miss the sensation of having someone hugging and cuddling me

anyone want to offer me one?

oh boy

i really am nuts over this new song

SOME DAYS I'M A SUPER BITCH!!~

yeap, i am a bitch

but you all still love me right?

WHOA WHOA WHOA,

time out.

over bhb/thick skinned already

HAHA!

i think my fever is really getting into me

going bonkers in the head

@_@

EKJFDLDJFLKJ:AL:DK:AFSLFLAJDJF:LJ

LEKFJLSDKJFS

SDLKFJSKJGLKSJGLKDJGKSJDG

#)($*@)(*$*%

LOL!

=)

christmas

2008-10-01T22:41:00.004+08:00

RANDOM FACT: I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE CHRISTMAS!!

and how i wish i can celebrate it overseas with loads of snow

and a warm WARM fire place

with Christmas socks hanged on the wall

and a well decorated Christmas tree with loads of presents underneath

next to a table laid with cookies and milk for Santa.

ok that was really random.

HAHA

i am back

2008-10-01T20:27:00.011+08:00

*UPDATE*

i forgot to include the fact that i am now without a phone

why?

cause i sent my phone for repair.

T3T

and i barely had it for a month

teaches me a lesson

don't buy sony erricson phone next time

T.T

went down with yi quan today

he had to repair his phone too

realized that sony erricson all have the similer auto restart problem

haha

and we met a guy that was super fierce when he could not get his phone repaired la

mood was bad, tone was bad

however, he did use some colourful words to make the world a brighter place

HAHA!

ok i know i am lame

-.-""

i lent my spare phone to yi quan cause he told me he needed a phone

and i thought he needed it more than me

haha

but i realized when i got back home that the other spare phone i had at home is spoilt

>.<

NEHMIND!!

I DON'T BELIEVE I CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT A PHONE!!

haha. XP

P.S. i blogged about you le hor yi quan. don't say i never.

HAHA! XP

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i just realized i have missed out on a lot of things.

why?

because i did not come online for almost 2 days

-.-

i guess RP students really do live off our lap tops and the net

kind of remind me of communication

"can we live with out Internet?"

haha.

realized that my blog is getting really boring

emo posts emo posts and more emo posts

i would really like to apologise for that

am going through some rough period nowadays

hope you all can bear with me

you cannot believe how many BIG tubs of chocolate ice creams i have gobbled

haha

yeap, i cry and i eat ice cream when i am sad or frustrated.

weird eh?

HEE HEE XP

my keyboard is not responding in my windows again.

thanks to my marvellous brother

that did not even want to admit that it was his fault.

ZZZZZZZ

AND AND AND

I TELL YOU!!

I GOT SO MANY MOSQUITO BITES IT CAN MAKE A NEW RECORD!!

i bet you guess must be thinking i went for some jungle adventure and back

but nope

I GOT THEM FROM HOME!!

those pesty little bugs.

i shall show you all.

HOW BAD CAN IT GET MAN!?!?

and most of them are on my thighs.

ZZZ

hey. the pictures does look a little wrong

ah whatever.

HAHA! XP

thanks to the god damn weather,

the mosquitoes had made a manifest in my house and found me their perfect food source

lucky my work at autobacs has ended

cannot imagine if my boss see those bites when i wear the mini skirt

i bet he will just ask me to go home

-.-"

argh

does anyone has a remedy to cure irritating itches?

i am trying very hard not to scratch them as i am afraid of leaving scars

BUT THE ITCH IS KILLING ME!!!

WHY MUST GOD CREATE MOSQUITOES IN THE FIRST PLACE??

they bring nothing but disturbance

>.<

oh boy

i really need to use the toilet now

update next time!

=D

$)%$_(%_$%(_)

2008-09-29T00:34:00.002+08:00

ARGH

I AM SO CONFUSED

I AM SO IRRITATED

I AM SO FRUSTRATED

I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING

I CAN'T EXPLAIN THE PHENOMENON TOO

FAN FAN FAN FAN FAN

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

WTFISH WTFISH WTFISH

P.S. i really feel like just screaming out now. but my neighbours are so going to call woodbridge to bring me away no doubt. ZZZ

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2008-09-27T22:39:00.004+08:00

i am so fucking pissed

pardon me for the bad language

but yes,

I AM FUCKING FUCKING PISSED

WHAT IS EVERY BODY'S PROBLEM TODAY!?

WTF

to that somebody,

you know who you are

it is only today i saw your true colours

or maybe i had already noticed but decided to give you a chance

but today,

you totally confirmed my theory

you are indeed a selfish person.

someone who cares only for your self but no one elses

even if you say that you are not,

your actions and personality will tell

you are truly a disappointment

and to the person that gave birth to me,

I FUCKING SWEAR THAT WHEN I REACH LEGAL AGE,

I.AM.MOVING.OUT

i must have owed you last life to be born to you

since you just LOVE to see me die in your hands,

i am so not going to let you have that pleasure

i am going to MOVE OUT,

get a GOOD JOB

and live a fucking live a FANTASTIC LIFE

by then, don't come running behind me to act as if you are anything to me

i have enough of you le

you maybe the person that gave me life,

but the violent actions and life threatening vows is enough to my heart die on you

please ask yourself,

since when did you ever do anything to contribute to bring us up?

i cannot even remember once that you ever spend your own money on a SINGLE MEAL during family night out

not to even say grocery shopping

it was always mummy who paid

so what rights do you have to take my life?

you are merely the person that made me

but not the one that molded me

i owe you nothing you know

not financially nor physically.

the almighty holyzac

2008-09-27T13:49:00.006+08:00

I WANT TO BLOG I WANT TO BLOG I WANT TO BLOG~

haha

just suddenly had the urge to blog

so here i am now!

:D

was told to read ralph's blog last night

and saw his all so touching post about shawn writing a poem for him for his birthday

must admit, kind of cool (EH SHAWN, DON'T SAY I DON'T GIVE FACE OK!)

and the funniest part of it was when shawn p-med by saying,

"GO SEE RALPH'S BLOG! GO GO GO! WHOOO I AM FAMOUS!!"

i almost fell of the chair laughing man

CANNOT GROW UP SIA!

opps

XD

and to add to his excitement of being famous,

i shall post some of his famous pictures up here on my blog

EH SHAWN! NOW YOU ARE FAMOUS HERE TOO!

MUHAHAHAHA

i think after these photos he most properly won't help anymore with difficult modules

ah but who cares,

it is great entertainment that cannot be missed!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

so here goes...

LOL!

these are all pictures taken my charis when we went over to ask shawn for help pertaining th problem statment

LOOK AT ALL HIS POSITIONS!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

oh man. he can really be wired wrongly at times

ROFL!

charis still has some of his even more alluring photos

want to see them?

request from her by tagging her tagboard!

:D :D

P.S. shawn, you are now offically famous again. thank me? MUAHHAHA >=) jkjk :)

self actualization

2008-09-27T00:33:00.004+08:00

i really cannot find the motivation to do anything nowadays man

i am getting from to lazier to LAZIEST

@_@

tell you all something ok?

i really need to achieve self actualization man.

what is self actualization you all might ask?

haha.

self actualization is the achievement of one's full potential through creativity, independence, spontaneity, and a grasp of the real world (taken from dictionary.com?)

XD

don't ask me why must i do that

cause

i also don't know

haha.

i just feel that there is a need for that

XP

i went for the hairstyling workshop today

it was damn fun man

i would elaborate on my next post *if i am ever not going to be so lazy*

i am sick and really sleepy

BUAY PEOPLE!

random: I FINALLY KNOW HOW TO PRINT SCREEN WITH MY MAC BOOK KEYBOARD!!

evidence

YAY!!

2008-09-26T00:13:00.001+08:00

officially too lazy

shall update next time!

XP

complete makeover

2008-09-24T10:21:00.002+08:00

ok, i am posting this in class now.

the problem statment today is way brain racking

i am still stuck at worksheet question 3

SIGH

i had the sudden urge to change my blog's url

had always thought it sounded cheesy and arrogent

but there are still many doubts involved

if i requested to be linked back,

will people do so?

so guys,

will you all link me back? haha.

ok, i have decided.

I AM CHANGING MY BLOG'S URL

and maybe my blog's layout and background

COMPLETE REVAMP!

and i have to do something to my room too

i can't continue to share a room with my brother forever.

have to start packing to space out another additional room

HAHA

busy busy busy.

but i like it.

>=)

MUHAHAHAHAHA

XD

a special thanks..

2008-09-23T23:23:00.004+08:00

SYAFIQ FYQ~

i said i would try my best to blog about you,

and here i am blogging about you!

HEE HEE XD

thank you so much for being there for me every time i have an emotional breakdown

even though there were time that we argued and played cold war,

you are still someone that lends your ears to me every time,

cared for me when i am sick

asking me whether i am ok or not

so now

I AM THANKING YOU PERSONALLY HERE!

you are the best

:D

ok, i did not go to school today

cause i had very bad gastric

you know something?

gastric totally sucks

it makes you feel totally sour and queasy inside

prevents you from eating good food too

which is a massive letdown cause food is my living pillar

HAHA

totally slacked the day off today

watched vampire knight all over again

seriously love the plot the characters

ZERO!!~

charis you got kaname ready so don't come snatch mine.

MUHAHAHA

wth

-.-""

had alot of thought bubbles today

each reaching a different conclusion

maybe i am an emo kid after all

just can't seem to be truly happy

hmmm.

haiya,

whatever la

i'm sure one of these days i will find true happiness.

don't you all think so?

:D

i want my old self back

2008-09-22T19:04:00.002+08:00

i sat on the bus and reflected on a lot of things

i realized that i have been stupid

crazy

dreaming too much on glamour

which isn't me at all.

i used to look at those pretty girls and envy them

and tried to be like them

got obsessed

then now i realized,

i don't want any of these

this not the lifestyle i desire

i want my old and decent lifestyle back

i want to be the Innocent,know nothing brenda back

which i know it is impossible

cause information fed to you isn't that easy to erase

sigh

i am going to go back to old self and am striving very hard for it

i..

sigh

really don't know what to say man....

ZZZ

2008-09-21T21:09:00.004+08:00

i have so many things up in my head now.

i am missing someone i should not miss

i should have been serious to someone but i didn't

i should have not let things get to where they are now not but i couldn't

oh man

damn screwed up recently

life is literally a roller coaster ride for me in these periods

i enjoyed

and i cried

been so enthusiastic

and can't be bothered

whatever la~

i know things will turn out straight again

all i need is patience.

P.S. i really can't be bothered by some people la. when i said enough means really enough. ignoring is the best remedy to anything.

a lesson learnt

2008-09-20T18:50:00.004+08:00

i just realized something drastic.

i have overspent A LOT this 2 months

it is close to 1 k

T.T

i know i know

you all are so going to change your opinions of me.

but i understand

i can't even forgive myself

i just don't understand

i use to be very against people using money like nothing

but i am one of them now

but when i realized how much deep shit i am in,

it is too late.

i am still lucky that i had worked during the holidays to recover my losses

but i am still devastated at the fact that i actually used so much

so from now on,

i am not spending money

serious

i am going to bring food to school

or maybe just fast with my Malay friends

oh my tian

i really need some motivation

would you all help me?

i really don't want the spending bug to continue infecting me

i want to be the old, stingy, money saving ah soh brenda back

i don't want to spend and spend even before i know how to earn

i feel so bad towards mummy now

so sorry for spending so much

i promise i have learnt my lesson

hard one too.

may my will be with me..

woah.

2008-09-19T00:17:00.003+08:00

woah.

what a nice way to start the uber early morning

so many things happened all at one time

i really need time to digest

in a semi confused and stricken state now

need time to sort things out...

bad english. SO WHAT?

2008-09-18T10:36:00.005+08:00

I just don’t understand man

What is wrong with bad language or bad English in my blog?

I mean,

THIS IS A BLOG FOR GOODNESS SAKE

AN ONLINE DIARY

A SPACE OF MY OWN

SO I WANT TO WRITE BROKEN ENGLISH CANNOT AH?

I don’t want to be pressurized into writing perfect English every time I want to blog

So long as people understand,

The message is delivered right?

Why be so particular about it?

This is not an English composition paper you know

THIS IS A REFLECTION, A THOUGHT,AN EXPRESSION OF MY FEELINGS

You should be grateful I don’t type like this

“wahhxx t0dayy s0 h0tx lehhx. S0 iriitattiingg! Bllehhxx “

So I suggest to you a better solution if you can’t stand my language.

JUST LEAVE

Enjoy commenting so much on other people’s language?

go sign yourself up as an English teacher and comment there

There is absolutely no need for any here.

untitled

2008-09-18T10:36:00.004+08:00

*EDITED* (before anymore people comment on my bad language)

i am now sitting in class in the mist of my classmates

but i feel like they don't exist at all

i cannot explain why i am having these kind of deceptions

maybe the emo bug had came and knock on my door again

everything seems to be so quiet nowadays

it feels as if i am living in this world all alone

i had a emotional breakdown last night

it made the window looked so tempting

damn those caged windows

i cried

cried like there is no tomorrow

i screamed

screamed like the world hates me

i may joke around

but no one knows it better than myself

i am just trying to look normal

feel so small inside

no one really understands

i used to have my family to run back to

but now even they have abandoned me

i know this sound like what any random teenager

but this is exactly what i am going through

i hate being emo

hate the feeling of pain

but i can't help it

i am stressed

stressed to do the impossible

sorry people

but i really need some care and concern now

may sound attention seeking

but i don't care

cause it is so going to make me feel better

save me, mummy

2008-09-16T20:26:00.005+08:00

guess i have not updated for a long time eh.

i have a lot of things to talk about

a lot of things to express

but i just don't know where to start

am also wondering whether it is appropriate to have everything down here.

there are ups and downs between these periods

and i wonder what should i put down?

should i just put only the happy ones like what charis asked me to?

or should i include the deep sounds within my heart that i am dying to shout out?

i really don't know

i understand nobody likes to read emo post

i personally do not like to read them too

but it is only over here i can express my pain

without upfront confrontation.

i hope you guys understand.

i am honestly not in the mood to post anything happy

it just makes me feel worse about life

i fake a smile but nobody knows

even charis you don't know it

how nice to see you laugh when i told you that

but you know i kind of feel a little sad when i said that

well never mind

that is over so

forget it.

life have been topsy turvy recently

everyone is slowly leaving me

i feel lonely

home does not feel like home anymore

how i wish you will stop doing all these to me mummy

don't you know verbal and mental punishment is so much more hurting then physical ones?

every time you said something to hurt me, do you know how frustrated and helpless i feel?

no, i don't think you do

i tried to obey you as much as i can

but i really feel breathless

you are holding me too tight.

i need some space to breath

i love you

you know that very well

i know i have not grown up according to your plans

and i did not live up to your expectations

but i tried

i really tried

i cannot help myself from crying as i type this

cause the pain inside can never subside

the hurting words you said to me cannot never be erased

can you stop making it seems like you don't care anymore?

cause i want you to care

i want you to know i respect you more then anyone else in this world

but you don't seem to understand

help me mummmy

save me from the deep agony that you pushed me into..

**********

i don't know why i keep thinking of you

maybe because loneliness is overwhelming me ba

suzumiya haruhi

2008-09-12T01:22:00.002+08:00

i promised i would test run my costume today right?

ok

here it is

quite cmi i must say

there is a urgent need to do something to my hairband bow

if not i will end up looking like shriek

-3-

don't believe

take a look

pardon my shagged look

am really very tired ready

there are many others

but i am too sleepy to bother already

hope i can still pass

>.<

ok la people

i need to sleep le

NIGHTS!

WHERE IS EVERYBODY!?!?

2008-09-10T23:45:00.005+08:00

i am urging for someone to talk to tonight

but when i logged on to msn

ALMOST ALL THE TALKABLE PEOPLE ARE ALL NOT ONLINE

oh man.

talk about being cut off from the world

is there something that i don't know about?

why are there nobody online already at this hour?

not very usual you know.

normally even till 1 am in the morning you still see people online

EVEN W35E ONLY HAS ONE PERSON ONLINE!!

WTH

WHERE IS EVERBODY!?!?

SOME SURPRISE PARTY I AM NOT INVITED TO!?!?

OR IS EVERYBODY REALLY THAT TIRED TODAY!?!?

oh my tian.

i really need someone to talk to now

anyone offer me a instant message?

T3T

P.S. i have not done my test run of my suzumiya haruhi cosplay costume.

i keep telling myself that i need to do it

but everytime i either am too lazy or too tired to do so

someone please spank me into doing it??

ARGHHHHHHHH

EVERYTHING IS IN A MESS

TOPSY TURVY

CHAOS

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

*faints*

*remembers that have not said bye yet*

*wakes up*

BUAY PEOPLE!!

*goes back to fainting mode*

HAHAHA

lame

XD

boring life

2008-09-10T00:04:00.002+08:00

i got my new blog song from charis's friend's blog

I SIMPLY LOVE THIS SONG!!

i was looking for it in umpteen years man

AND NOW I FOUND IT!!

:D:D

charis's friend, i hope you don't mind!

:D

life is boring today so i won't elaborate

guess i am really turning into a lazy bum

HOW HOW HOW!?!?

SOMEONE SAVE ME!!!

T3T

ok la

enough of crap

BUAY!!

XD

a lovely day

2008-09-08T17:25:00.004+08:00

hi.

i am now blogging in school while waiting for my mum

just one sentence to say

I AM STARTING TO LIKE MY CLASS ALREADY!

:D:D

we had a lot of fun today

all thanks to eda!

*loves*

i finally found another person as crazy as me!

YAY!!

XD

so my future time in W16R can be as crazy as possible

not worrying about the fact that it would embaress me

ALL HAIL TO EDA!

WHOOTS!!~

i met the most amazing facilitator today as while

he actually offered to help me change my hard disk man!!

but i think i portray to him as a bimbotic girl that spends a lot

cause i was going around shrieking about how sucky my macbook was

and how i bought my macbook for its looks(partcially)

-.-

die

give people a wrong impression

ZZZZZZ

Allan asked me to send my particulars and my photos over for him and the client

DIE

my photos are CMI one la

i can't even believe he picked me to be a model

like so -.-

but the pay is good :D

must work hard to replenished the huge amount i spent

T3T

*****************************

mass convo with my sony peeps again tonight

I AM REALLY GRATEFUL TO BE ABLE TO MEET THEM LA!!

THEY ARE LIKE THE MOST FUN PEOPLE EVER!!

got old ones

young ones

quiet ones

pai kia ones

drama freak

married man

eat potatos one

HAIYA

EVERYTHING ALSO GOT LA

CAN'T WAIT FOR MON(PAYDAY) TO MEET THEM LA!

although i am not settled with the pay problem

BUT CAN FINALLY MEET UP WITH MY FUN PEEPS

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!~~

*MONDAY FASTER COME*

JGIG camp is on friday and saturday

and on sat we are having our first ever cosplay event!!

i really scared i cmi la

-.-

WO MEN YI QI JIA YOU BA KISA!!

:D:D

07-09-08

2008-09-07T20:15:00.006+08:00

please tell me

for the biggest mp4 player on top

HOW TO DIFFERENTCIATE!?!?

ARGHHHHHHHHHHH

******************************

kevin said a sentence just now

"haiya. he is the type of person that will only care about himself one la"

and it suddenly struck me

what kevin have said was really true

there was never once i saw him doing anything to benefit anybody but himself

i was too much into a dream

lost in his sweet words

i guess i am indeed too naive

but no worries

i am awakened

thanks kevin for waking me up

i will be more careful from now onwards.

:D

**************************

went out for pigging out session just now with kevin and kaiboon

cause kaiboon is going tekong this friday le

no more potential slacker to call when i am bored le

T.T

LOL!

went to eat smelly tofu first

then pigs organ soup

then dao hui (beancurd)

LOL

i cannot believe i ate so much la

-.-

until now i still feeling so full man

die

later cannot sleep tonight

HAHA

all the best to your botak days ba kaiboon!

don't play 15 year old until over fire hor!

HAHA

XD

*****************************

I GOT MY HARUHI SUZUMIYA'S COSTUME TODAY!!

WHEEEEEEEE!!~~

*skips around the room with joy*

oh my tian.

so bimbotic

ok

time to snap back to reality

LOL!

XD

will post pictures of it soon

provided i am not lazy

LOL!

MOTIVATE ME BY TAGGING MY BOARD!!

lol

wth

-.-"

went with charis and sone anne(new friend. HI! :D) to pan in the box today

saw the guy that cosplay the ____________ from naruto loh! (don't know the characters name -.-)

apparently he always cosplay that character without fail.

LOL!

charis and i both think he is kind of cute

he drew his eyebrows somemore loh!

and so shy

HAHA!

went around to find charis's leather shoes after we made our purchase

and i finally bought my silicon case for my phone

*LOVES*

LOL!

ok then

i shall end off with..

CHEATED

2008-09-07T09:54:00.003+08:00

This was suppose to be posted yesterday

but i was too devestated that i could not type anything down

i recieved a call from **(the company i am under during comex)(censored) yesterday

"Hello, is this brenda? i think you told the customers wrong information. she insist that you told her and want a change. you need to settle this.."

WTF

THE CUSTOMER INSIST THAT I TOLD HER THE SET HAS BLUETOOTH BUT IN FACT IT DOESN'T

!!!

I DID NOT LA!

to feed you all with a little insights of the problem

THE PROBLEM LIES WITH THE BROCHURE THAT THEY ASK US TO GIVE OUT LA

if i manange to find the brochure i will show it to you all

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

they put the blutooth series and non bluetooth together

under the same digram,

under the same column!!

HOW CAN THE CUSTOMER DIFFERENCIATE!?!?

to those who have once looked at the brochure you all will know

AND NOW ALL THE BLAME IS PUT ON ME!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

*FAINTS*

apparently i need to pay for whatever the customers insist on changing

AND SHE IS USING HER USED ONE TO CHANGE FOR A BRAND NEW ONE

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i think there goes all the hard earned commission i slogged for

maybe even the basic pay will be deducted also

in short,

I MAY NOT BE PAID FOR MY 4 DAYS HARDWORK!!

FUCK

if those who know, and those who have been reading my entries

I WAS FREAKING SICK DURING THE SHOW LA

BUT I STILL SLOGGED FOR THEM AND SOLD SO MANY SETS FOR THEM

AND NOW THEY ARE DOING THIS TO ME!?!?

I AM ONLY A PART TIME WORKER LEH

THE MONEY MAY BE LITTLE BUT IMPORTANT TO ME LA

DAMN IT

sigh

how suay can i get man

ZZZZZZZZZZ

my parents even told me to go to ministry of manpower to complaint

but neh mind ba

duo yi shi bu ru shao yi shi

forget it ba

*DISCLAIMER:THIS IS PLAINLY FOR MY RANTING USAGE. COMPANY NAME WILL NOT BE DISCLOSED.

W890i

2008-09-06T00:07:00.012+08:00

YO PEOPLE!

today i am going to introduce to you my new phone!

*drum rolls*

SONY ERICSSION W890i !!!

the lovely W890i and me! :D

the front,

the back,

and look how slim it is!

it also has a 3.2 megapixel camera but sadly,

no optical zoom

nor any flash light to go with it.

ah well,

you cannot expect much when you merely spend so little on it

HAHA!

but nevertheless,

I LOVE MY NEW PHONE!!

i know i know

you all are sure to ask me what's up with my outfit

-.-

i just came back from my cousin's wedding dinner la

and i was going retro in my dressing

HAHA

that explains the big red bow on my head right?

>.<

speaking of the wedding,

i took some photos during the wedding cause i was bored

but i guess it is alright?

i mean who doesn't get bored when all the adults start talking to each other

and you are left alone

so i did some photo taking indulgence

HAHA

pardon the bad quality of the photos

cause the lighting there was terrible

and my hands were shivering due to the cold

however so,

i hope you all will enjoy it!

:D

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thats all people

i am lazy to explain the pictures

refer and analysis yourself ba

LOL!

BYE!

:D

I MISS W35E

2008-09-04T22:13:00.001+08:00

IMY LAZY TO BLOG!!

yeap.

you read it

so i may just go on a blog hibernation for a few days before i post again

haha

no mood to do anything recently

have been constantly falling sick ever since comex

ZZZZZZZZ

school is boring as usual

AND HOW I MISS W35E LA!

i must be honest to say that i don't really like my current class

don't ask me why but nothing can replace W35E

where there was endless fun and laughter

W35E-ians!

AGREE WITH ME!?

T.T

officially joined JCIG

going for their camp and cosplaying event on the 15

SO EXCITED MAN!!

but i still not sure what to cosplay as

any suggestions people?

can tag me on my tagboard!

:D:D

ok la

i shall end here and go do my dwelling RJ

oh man

school sucks without W35E

oh well

guess i would just have to live with it

SUCK IT UP BRENDA!

HAHA

BYE PEOPLE!

estelle oh estelle

2008-09-02T12:26:00.005+08:00

WHOOTS!

HI EVERYBODY!

I AM HERE TODAY TO INTRODUCE YOU TO AN AWESOME BLOG TO VISIT WHEN YOU ARE BORED

YES ESTELLE BABE

I AM TALKING ABOUT YOUR BLOG!

HAHA

FILLED WITH FREAKISHLY LOADS OF FUN

LOADS OF VULGARITIES

MOUNTAINS OF RANDOM SHIT

BUT ALL IN ALL

ENDLESS ENTERTAINMENT!!

WHEEEEEE!~

I LOVE ESTELLE

YOUR BLOG IS A.W.E.S.O.M.E (sounds familiar? XD)

*random. but her blog is really a mind blower. don't believe? click on this, www.sheisweird1234.blogspot.com

**********************

i am kind of getting lazy to blog nowadays

got a whole load of random shit to blah out

but just can't get my lazy fingers to move

ZZZZZZZZZ

i am suppose to go back to school to repair my lappie

but i am still waiting for charis to wake up

ARGH

i just feel so uneasy not working man

maybe you all are right

i may really be a workaholic

but who won't love work when is so fun, fun, FUN!?

HAHA!

I MISSING YOU ALL SONY WALKMAN PEEPS!

I TRUELY AM!

oh my tian

sounds so wrong

tomorrow is the start of the brand new semester

ARGH again

i just feel so lazy to go school

-.-

Radom quiz : what did i eat for breakfast today?

LOL!

wth

-.-

i don't think anyone would really go and guess la

haha

but in any fact you would really like to try,

tell me your answer on my tagboard!

HAHA

L.A.M.E

I WANT A 3G PHONE!!

2008-09-02T02:03:00.003+08:00

I CAME TO FREAKING RANT ABOUT SOMETHING

MY MUM HAS A 3G PHONE

MY DAD HAS A 3G PHONE

MY AUNT HAS A 3G PHONE

MY UNCLE HAS A 3G PHONE

AND

AND

AND

MY G.R.A.N.D.M.A HAS A 3.5G PHONE!!!

WTF

and i still using a normal phone

my grandma even knows how to VIDEO CALL la

-.-

I WANT A 3G PHONE TOO LA

T.T

i feel older than my grandma man

ZZZZZZ

2008-09-01T17:02:00.004+08:00

YO FELLOW EARTHLINGS!

BRENDA IS BACK!!!

ROFL!

yesterday was the end of the comex IT fair

AND I SO MISS THE SONY WALKMAN PEOPLE LA

all the way from charis to carrina!!!

wth

although it was really tough work la

but it was all fun at the same time

:D:D

chris say that he will email us the whole entire list of our numbers and msn

but he have not done it

hope he does not forget or be too lazy to send it out

:X

btw

sorry for the lack of photos

number 1,

I WAS FREAKING BUSY WITH SALES

the crowd was endless la

and you really meet all kinds of different people man

number 2,

I WAS FREAKING SICK

that kinda made me lazy to whip my phone to take pictures

i mean i can't even stand right already

how to take pictures?

-.-

anyway, i really enjoyed myself there

i even met a marvin (participant of mr.sui) wannabe

only he was so much taller

heard from charis that is a mixed tawianese

like WTF!?

DON'T LOOK LIKE LA

but he can really use the ang moh slang well

eat potato grow up one

HAHA!

ok la

i am still not feeling very well

my head is pounding while typing this

shall end here

BYE!

*notice i did not even put a title for this post. TOO LAZY

i MISS WORK!!!!!!!!

2008-08-31T00:01:00.003+08:00

HI PEOPLE

I.AM.OFFICIALLY.SICK

LOL!

was already not feeling very well since yesterday

thought i could ta han today

so i went to work

but in the end also can't make it

was launching in the toilet

felt faint

and fainted once

only everybody was too busy with sales to notice

HAHA!

but like i said,

IMY STRONG

so i got myself on my feet

:)

but felt so helpless that when kevin came to look for me with da sao,

i burst into tears

moreover sales for me today was not very good

:(

so i left early

heard that sales was ok

:D

many thanks kevin and dasao for bring me to the food court to

FEED ME ( not enough time to even eat )

and giving me medication

many thanks to kaiboon who have been mentally supporting me through smses

and all my working colleadge for showing so much concern for me

THANKS PEOPLE!

YOU ALL ARE THE BEST!

really appreciate it and was really touched

T.T

ok la. i going back to sleep already

guess i really need it

get enough rest and..

TOMORROW CHIONG AGAIN!

HAHA!

BYE PEOPLE!

Comex it fair part 1

2008-08-30T00:19:00.003+08:00

i actually had no intention to blog

but i don't know why i am still here

haha

SUPER

UBER

CHAO JI

FREAKING

MASSIVELY

T.I.E.R.D!!!!

i am already falling sick during the show la

but sales today was quite ok

18 sets

CONGRATULATIONS MY TEAM LEADER JERMAINE FOR BEING THE TOP SALES!

and of course for winning the $100 incentive

:D:D

i met with a freaking disgusting customer today la

he tried on the EX headphones (inner)

and guess what happened after he took it out?

THERE WAS A HUGE LUMP OF EAR WAX ON BOTH EARPHONES LA

i almost wanted to tell him,

" Sir, i think it is high time for you to clean your ears. If not, given the best quality earphones will sound blocked to you.."

but of course i did not la

-.-

and the worse part is

I HAVE TO FREAKING CLEAR THE EARPHONE FOR HIM LA

WTF

I WAS SO U.B.E.R DISGUSTED

man, sir, don't tell me you so budget until you cannot buy a ear digger

ZZZZZZ

and to add to the misery,

i still had to SMILE at him and continue promoting

oh man

just my luck

major ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!

and you got it,

HE DID NOT FREAKING BUY!!

thanks ah,

dirty my earphones, make me clean it for you, then

DON'T BUY

waaaaaa

this kind of customer really make me -.-

another set of customers that really make me want to slap them

are those whom you smile nicely at them asking nicely whether they need help

AND THEY FREAKING IGNORE YOU ALL GIVE YOU A FACE

EH HELLO

I KNOW I AM PAID TO SMILE AT YOU LA

BUT CAN BE AT LEAST POLITE ENOUGH TO SMILE BACK???

damn it

give me that kind of face

make me so blood boil

LOL!

ok la

that's enough of rantings le

i shall feed you all with more info on the show after everything is over

BYE PEOPLE!

comex it fair

2008-08-27T21:32:00.002+08:00

tomorrow is comex IT fair...

AND I AM SO SO EXCITED!!

because?

I AM WORKING THERE!!!

it is going to be so damn taxing la

but neh mind

:)

i got the games from kaiboon already

AND I AM SO NOOB AT DJ MAX LA!!

-.-

i guess i really need more practice man

anyone want to play with me?

XD

i may M.I.A from tomorrow onwards till sun

cause i presume after the show i will be dead beat

so bear with me people!

i promise a long post with pictures if possible

CIAO!

:D :D

new class

2008-08-26T21:46:00.001+08:00

LOL!

i am posted to W16R

haha

kisa's friend is there too

hi simon.

:)

slacked the whole day today

and realized that when a psp is not loaded with games,

it is pretty much pointless

waiting for the day kaiboon passes me the games

YAY!

:D :D

i suddenly want to eat durian

LOL!

durian puff~

durian pancake~

durian cake~

DURIANNNNNNNN~~

wth

i am going nuts

HAHA!

CIAO!

change of blog song..

2008-08-26T00:54:00.002+08:00

ZzZ

just noticed that hokkien songs kind of make your blog sound very noisy

i already cannot stand it

don't say my readers

so for the sake of all ears,

I SHALL CHANGE THE SONG!

and in place of it,

i shall put the all mighty...

L.O.W

MUHAHAHA!

later jennifier and lucien gets too excited ( IF )

they start dancing when they read my blog

"BOOBS WITH THE FUR!!~"

ROFL!!!!

XD

anyway i got my psp already

AND I CANNOT STOP SMILING LA!!

:) :)

but there is still no games loaded

ZZZZ

will have to wait till tomorrow

when kaiboon passes me his whole collection of games

YAY!!

:D:D

the briefing for the IT show was really B.R.I.E.F man

so brief until they did not even inform us what time to reach la

-.-

i am grouped with 3 other girls

but they don't seem very friendly loh

i hope they don't sabo me

cause i really mean no harm

nor any intention to snatch their sales la

totally ruin my motivation for the show

ZZZZZ

neh mind

i chiong all the way can le

think don't care them ba

LOL!

off to explore my psp

BYE PEOPLE!!

I MISS WORK!!!!!!!!

2008-08-25T11:30:00.004+08:00

oh man

i woke up this morning with a terrible missing for the best denki stuff

i really REALLY miss work man

i miss those super funny,entertaining and concerned colleague man

i miss,

wati

yati

sam,

jessica,

gary,

joshua,

ruiliang ( hao ren/ho lang)

wai kiat ( brandon ) --> ANOTHER ANIME FREAK~

adrain

mr yee

emerson

chris

and many many others i know but i don't know their names or forget their names ( SORRY!!)

neh mind

i will be going back to visit them today

cause ho lang said he would bring me to buy my psp today

YAY!!

THANKS HO LANG!

YOU ARE INDEED A HO LANG!!

FYI ho lang means good person in hokkien

AND I AM GETTING MY PSP TODAY!!

YAY!!!!!

WHOOTS!~

so excited man

NOW I CAN PLAY DJ MAX ALREADY!

see my friends play i so envious man

HAHA

after that i would have to go to sim lim for my training

so i guess my next blog post will come later at night

PAI SEH PEOPLE

OH SHIT

got raided by mum for using the computer when i just woke up

better go and take breakfast and everything before she scolds again

CIAO!

:)

ji ba ban

2008-08-25T00:17:00.005+08:00

last day at best denki

I AM SO GOING TO MISS ALL OF THEM MAN

although at times it can be really boring

but we really entertain each other well man

so should i go back there to work during my holidays?

I WANT MAN!!

see whether rebecca allow or not

T.T

i have really fell in love with the song ji ba ban

so i shall put it as my blog song

i know a bit ah lian to put a hokkien song la

BUT DAMN CUTE CAN!!

so for the good of people who don't understand hokkien,

here is the direct english translation

"If I have got one million, one million,
I got one million, my whole life no worries,

Never say nobody knows, say already very shy,
Eat until so big, never sat on a plane before,

Worked so hard for so many years, no car no house and also no lover,
See people get married and do business, got money and got success,

If I have got one million, I wanna sit on a plane,
I wanna explore the world, Hawaii to sun bath,
Japan eat sushi ( treat you eat sushi )

If I have got one million, I wanna buy car buy house,
Eat all the delicacies of the world, who got the good luck,
Be my girl ( thanks to xiaoken@hwz for explaining these two lines )

If I have got one million, one million,
I got one million, my whole life no worries,

Never say nobody knows, say already very shy,
Eat until so big, never sat on a plane before,

Worked so hard for so many years, no car no house and also no lover,
See people get married and do business, got money and got success,

If I have got one million, I wanna sit on a plane,
I wanna explore the world, Italy drink coffee,
Road side eat spaghetti ( road side eat spaghetti )

If I have got one million, I wanna buy car buy house,
Buy shop to collect rent, easy easy no need to work,
Bring dog go for a walk,

If I have got one million, one million,
If you need to borrow money, just open your mouth and ask and no need shy shy,

If I have got one million, one million,
Ten thousand eight thousand take go and use,
No need to pay back also no problem ( pay back money not a problem )

If I have got one million, one million,
Wei friend, you think one million a lot ah?"

THE MEANING OF THE SONG IS DAMN CUTE RIGHT!!

LOL!

enjoy

:D

CIAO!

girl with iron heart.

2008-08-24T10:56:00.003+08:00

at 10 am in the morning,

i switched on my hp to find this,

'742604840753273092530630870867'

decode it yourself if you want to know what it means

oh man Bernard,

you learn fast man

although the last bit was a bit off

-.-

so now, at 11,

i have yet,

taken my breakfast,

showered

or gotten anything ready

guess i am still a super lazy person

so going to get nagged by mum later

STUPID BERNARD ALWAYS SAY I BULLY HIM

FIRST CALL ME MUSHROOM HEAD

THEN CALL MY CHINESE NAME CONSTANTLY

YI YANG YI YANG YI YANG

@&*^#*^#*$

since he doesn't read my blog so it is alright

MUHAHAHA!!

ok la

i must go get ready already

if not i will be uber late again

ZZZZZZZZ

*******************

funny how i am not really affected by it

maybe rejections does not take effect on my already

a girl with iron heart

IMY STRONG!

and yes, that is a hair dryer

XD

goodbye

2008-08-23T22:28:00.001+08:00

time to let go

since you made it clear

all the best to you and you know who.

30 more mins to viwawa session

shall indulge myself there

codes..

2008-08-23T11:15:00.003+08:00

i am now with mixed feelings

very happy to clear the misunderstanding between kazaf and me

at least now when i talk to him i don't feel the burden

i did something really bold yesterday

i had put all my feelings down in codes for him to decode

and if that is not obvious enough,

i also don't know what to do le

cause like i said i am not going to do upfront confession

so lets see what happens ba

i may be disappointed again

but at least i tried

**************

oh man look at the time

i am going to be late for work and i still have not showered yet

DIE

ciao people!

macbook photobooth pictures

2008-08-23T02:44:00.006+08:00

this are the remainding macbook photobooth pictures i owe

too lazy to add border to them

enjoy!

:D

zhi pa ban..

2008-08-23T01:59:00.002+08:00

thanks kevin and kaiboon for introducing me such a cute song

it is a hokkien song so if you don't understand hokkien

erm

i also don't know how leh

:X

LOL

here is a little insight of it

it is not the full version but the cutest version

enjoy!

:D

and the chimpmunk version!!!!

SO CUTE MAN!!!

XD

for the full version, please contact lau kaiboon at boon_noob@hotmail.com

if he is nice he would send you

LOL

good luck asking from him!

:)

2008-08-22T23:34:00.003+08:00

superman had found his superwoman

so when are you going to let me know whether am i wasting my time?

i really wanted to tell you today

how much i liked you

and the certain thing about you that drew me so much to you

but these words that are so simple in terms

seem so difficult to be used on you

the silence from you confuses me

you seem to have some person in mind

but my feelings tell me that person is not me

tell me please if you know

i am begging you...

dear kazaf...

2008-08-22T22:40:00.005+08:00

To my dear friend kazaf...

seriously,

i don't know where to start.

maybe i shall begin by telling you,

i know.

if you can recall,

i do in fact read your blog

and i believe that i IQ is not bad enough to not figure out what you meant

but i was in doubt,

i did not know how to be open with you.

i was afraid.

i wondered if i told you sorry would you end our friendship

every sms and every thank you i sent you was sincere

i can swear you that

but i am really sorry to say,

he had already taken the position in my heart.

i really am very bliss to have met a guy like you

and i am also very happy for you to find your superwoman

i hope this upfront rejection would not ruin our friendship

i wish all well,

brenda

***********

you said that i had these thoughts,

"It is really unnecessary of you"

"I don't need you to come this far"

"It's like wth are you doing here?"

"Why are you getting me things?"

i am honest to say

i was disappointed that you thought this way

this was not at all the thoughts that was going through my mind

i was thinking,

"oh my tian. he really surprised me"

"how am i going to thank him?"

"that's really unexpected and sweet of him"

our stiff conversation was a result of my awkwardness

not because i disliked you.

and another reason was because i did not want you to misunderstand

i really appreciated your drink and strepiles

it really made me feel better.

once again,

thank you

and i really mean it.

the all notorious brother of mine..

2008-08-21T23:50:00.005+08:00

It has been like so many uber LONG years,

since my brother started his first blog

which was seriously filled with bullshit.

MUHAHAHA!

but since this is his second and much MORE successful blog,

i shall publicized his blog here

EH BK, DON'T SAY I NOT GOOD ENOUGH OK

I DEDICATED A ENTIRE POST TO ADVERTISE YOUR BLOG HOR

now this is really called blood is thicker than water

not like him,

freaking link everyone except his own blood sister

-.-

so curious?

please proceed to www.thesplblogs.blogspot.com

****************

totally zero, kosong, ling, jidan, bo sales today la

ZZZZZZZZ

was so bored and tired i almost wanted to fall asleep standing la

some more today so many people are off

damn

and to add to the all so disgusted situation,

THERE IS ALMOST NO CUSTOMERS AT ALL LA

not only the mp3 and 4s section

but the whole entire best denki was almost empty

unless you count the best denki's staff

the place was really deserted

no wonder music was blasted so loud and no one complainted

i had fell in love with working nowadays

even if there is like nobody buying

but just going through the whole process makes me uber happy

:D:D

and PUH LEASE

i am happy because i can get income from it

*stops for a moment*

erm

maybe for that i am happy too la

HAIYA

JUST HAPPY WORKING OK

so lo so

HAHA

OK I AM GOING OFF PEOPLE

ciao!

helpless

2008-08-21T01:01:00.005+08:00

i feel so helpless now

i am really all cried out already

i really have no idea what to do now

lost in the mist of confusion

should i continue or should i just give up

the last opportunity came and gone

without a word, without a sound

so many things lay hidden

yet there is like no way to reveal it

somethings are meant to stay hidden

but i do have a choice

caught in the middle of extreme misery and confusion

i am screaming silent agony

when are you going to pull me out of the pit

that i have dug and threw myself in

help,

the person that who would never respond

****************

the song that is playing on now

speaks the truth of my heart

listen close

chalet and random ranting

2008-08-20T18:05:00.006+08:00

OH MY TIAN

I AM SO S.H.A.G.G.E.D

just got back from the chalet

ate my lunch and

BOOM

i fell on my bed and S.L.E.P.T

i never felt better sleeping man

but when the time i woke up,

i felt so sick, i wanted to throw up

ZZZZZ

my throat is so sore i cannot even talk properly

and my headache is like

*WOAH*

DUO COMBO

it feels like hangover

just without alcohol

MAJOR ZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

and i still need to work tomorrow

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ again

man

will update about more the chalet when i feel better

and when i have the time

so guys, please bear with me

i am already blurring when i type this post

**********************
wth

my cousin is really the luckiest kid around la

without exaggeration,

he has a ps2,

ps3,

wii

own plasma flat screen tv to play them with

his own room with his own keyboard

and freaking TWO desktops

a piano,

a camcorder

and a mp3

a WHOLE TON of freaking EXPENSIVE games to play with

and not to mention really open minded parents

although at times they can be really strict

and he is only primary 5

S.I.G.H

not that i am not contented with my life now

but things you can't get you desire for it right?

and he gets to celebrate his birthday every year with a full buffet,

loads of guests

and a freaking BIG cake

S.I.G.H

i am 17 already,

i have also never held a party for my birthday

lucky fellow

AND THE WORSE THING IS HE STILL COMPLAINTS

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

ok la

i am just having having a moment of being materialistic

but admit la

which teenager will not get jealous of my cousin's life?

just ignore me,

我在耍性子，

羡慕羡慕一下人家

cause i am honestly already contented with my family.

*STARTS BLABBERING HOW MUCH I LOVE MY FAMLIY*

:D :D

P.S. i hope all you guys enjoyed the chalet, although from 24 people only ended up with 6, i still had a memorable time with you all.

my favourite part of the chalet was the water activity

how about you all?

share with my in my tagboard ok?

LOVE YOU ALL!

seriously

:)

2008-08-17T22:58:00.003+08:00

I AM DAMN PISSED NOW

I NOT FREE ALL DON'T WANT TO DO

TAKE ME FOR GRANTED ONLY

LATER ANYTHING THEN BLAME ME

EH HELLO

I AM HUMAN ALSO OK

I AM WORKING FOR PETE'S SAKE

I AM NOT SLACKING AT HOME OK

I NEED FIND MONEY

GOT THING THEN CALL ME

CAUSE NEED MY HELP

NOTHING THEN FREAKING NEVER THINK OF ME

FUCK YOU ALL LA

I DON'T FREAKING CARE READY

IF YOU ALL DON'T WANT TO GO THEN DON'T FUCKING GO LA

THE MOST I TREAT IT AS I TOO MUCH MONEY

THROW IT DOWN THE DRAIN

DAMN IT

my birthday at best denki

2008-08-16T22:22:00.004+08:00

you said happy birthday

and i am already satisfied

firstly, i really must thank all those touching sms wishings from all my friends

even from people that i really did not expect

THANKS PEOPLE!

i specially like to kazaf, boon and bernard(according to who came first)

that made a trip down to give me my present or just to accompany me

am really very touched man

today's sales was ok

so i am really very happy

but today some weird guy came up to me

i thought he wanted to buy mp3 or 4

then i went " hi sir, looking for mp3s or 4s?"

then he went " can i have your number?"

-.-""""

my colleague next to me just shrug his shoulders

-.-

but the guy quite good looking

WTF

did i just said that!?!?

brenda you must be mad

LOL!

but in the end i did not give him la

figured that if he is able to ask for number

都好不了哪里去

LOL

ok la

i am damn tired already

still waiting for my bro to come back to cut cake

haha

BYE PEOPLE!

NEED MORE SALES!!

2008-08-16T09:26:00.004+08:00

WHOOOOTS!~

today i will still be working

SO EXCITED!!

not

LOL!

follow double i's blogging method

wth

-.-

i know, i know,

SAD LIFE RIGHT??

birthday still need to work

LOL!

haiya,

birthday 不就是平常的一天?

don't need to celebrate one la

wth

-.-"

brenda, you lie

HAHA

i just hope today's sales will be better than the last 2 days la

cause today is a weekend

but BUT

TODAY I HAVE TO COMPETE WITH 4 PROMOTERS LEH!!

one experienced one from creative, and 3 from samsung

yeah you read it,

THREE FROM SAMSUNG

*shrieks and faints from over anxiety*

really la,

i am still a newbie,

HOW TO FIGHT WITH THEM!?!?

T.T

neh mind

i try my best

CHIONG AH!!!

ok la

i need go shower then get ready to go down plaza singapura buy shoes

cause my shoes ber chak yesterday

FYI ber chak = spoilt

HAHA!

i got so many different terms to use

MUHAHAHAHA!

ok then,

wish me luck for more sales,

BYE!

:D:D

******************************

i have waited and waited

but still no wishes from you

not that i don't appreciate the others

but yours hold a special meaning

did you even remember?

happy birthday...

2008-08-16T00:16:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRENDA!!~

YOU ARE 71 THIS YEAR!!

wth

-.-"

thank you those who actually remembered and wished my earlier or at 12

really appreciated them

even if it is a simple happy birthday,

i am already very satisfied

:D:D

THANKS PEOPLE!

LOVE YOU ALL!!~

oh my tian

so not me

but yeap,

LOVE YOU ALL!!

LOL!

first day of work..

2008-08-14T23:01:00.004+08:00

FREAKING TIREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

ZZZZZZZZ

people there are really nice la

just that maybe i am not that familiar with them yet

so not much conversing between us

but there is 2 big spoiler in the whole process,

firstly,

THERE IS NO FREAKING CHAIR TO SIT!!!!

my leg now very nua la

FYI, nua = jelly

secondly,

THERE IS NO FREAKING CUSTOMER IN THE AFTERNOON!!

i am literally staring into black space most of the time la

excluding the time i actually was playing around with the display set

WAAAAAAAA

CANNOT LE LA

I AM NOW DAMN HUNGRY

AND DAMN SHAGGED

but i too lazy to go down get something to eat le

AND I SHALL STOP HERE

BYE PEOPLE!

P.S if i am able to wake up, i will blog more in the morning

my first day of work

2008-08-14T09:27:00.004+08:00

I DID NOT BLOG YESTERDAY AS WELL!!

T.T

you want to know the reason why?

Firstly,

I GOT THE JOB~!

so i was busy trying to memorize all the stats of the mp3s and 4s

before going to work today

and secondly,

MY KEYBOARD IS TOTALLY NOT RESPONDING IN MY WINDOWS VISTA!!

T.T

to those who don't know,

i own a macbook so there has 2 operating system in my lappie

and i am telling you

WINDOWS WILL START TO SUCK ONCE PUT INTO A MAC

cause mac is originally not built for windows

so a lot of complications arise when you start using windows in mac

I CAN'T TYPE IN MY WINDOWS OS

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

ZZZZZZZZ

ok, enough worrying about that

will try and get someone to repair it for me if i have the time

we will get on to how nervous i am now

YEAH MAN

I FREAKING NERVOUS!!

today will be my first day of work

AND I AM WORKING ALONE IN A BIG FIRM!!

BEST DENKI!!

*faints*

but i need to earn money ah

S.I.G.H

i sure go in blur blur one

then machiam gapala batu one

DIE

sure kena complaint one

another ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

T.T

and some more today corrine not working

SO NOBODY GO LUNCH WITH ME

*DOUBLE BLOW*

*dies instantly*

ok la, stop being hysterical

i hope everything goes well ba

WISH ME LUCK BA PEOPLE!!

:D:D

oh by the way,

those who wants to buy mp3 or 4,

please proceed down to takashimaya 4 floor best denki

i will personally serve you :D

BYE PEOPLE!

P.S may not be able to blog for quite some time because of work and chalet. Promise i will try to blog in the morning before work la. but no guarantees ok!

P.S photo owed,

sorry guys

2008-08-13T09:12:00.005+08:00

I AM SO SORRY PEOPLE!!

for not blogging yesterday

>.< color="#ff0000" size="4">I AM GAMING!

MUHAHAHAHA!

those who know me long me long enough will know,

that i am not much of a gamer

but people change right?

hmmm.

HAHAHA!

so those who want to game with me,

please leave a message on the tagboard

and we shall all play together!

ALRIGHT MAN!

ok,enough of that,

LOL!

so...

to compensate for the loss of post yesterday,

i shall post a little this morning

then update you all with my outing and interview

do not expect much pictures taken

cause

cause.
.
.
.
.
.
.
MY PHONE EXPLODED!!!

yeah right

-.-

LOL!

actually it is because i forgot to charge my phone la

HOW CAN I FORGET!?!?

T.T

neh mind

i will try to coop kaiboon's phone to take photos la

cause his is cybershot

MUHAHAHAHA!

may the power be with me!

ROFL!

wth

-.-"

OH MY TIAN!!

LOOK AT THE TIME!!

I AM SO LATE!

better get going

LATER PEOPLE!

:)

working at...?

2008-08-11T22:14:00.004+08:00

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

IMA SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO TIRED!

had a ghostly encounter today

i don't dare to elaborate more

DAMN FRIGHTENING!!

i am so afraid that i went down to bugis to pray straight after school

-.-"

charis was very afraid too so she came down with me

evidence,

my interview for sony is on wednesday,

selling sony walkman..

same day in which i going out to celebrate my early birthday leh

T.T

then if i take the job, i will not be able to celebrate my actual birthday la

CAUSE I WILL BE WORKING!!

T.T

i am most properbly be working at takashimaya best denki,

but everybody say the system there very strict

cannot even drink water at frontdesk

so scary

-.-"

another alternative is to work at sim lim

but but BUT

SIM LIM LEH

the place where (no offence) alot of ah beng goes la

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

so which place should i take up?

HAIYA!

WHATEVER LA

IMA TIRED

DON'T CARE LIAO

S.L.E.E.P

P.S. LOL! i say sleep but always ended up not sleeping one. HAHA! photo owed,

coincidence?

2008-08-10T23:00:00.005+08:00

the main purpose of blogging again today is,

I SAW SOMEONE THAT LOOK FREAKISHLY SIMILAR TO ME!!!!

same hair,

same bangs,

same dressing style,

same face!!!

then i remembered two to three days ago,

Kazaf and Ralph also messaged me to say they see someone that look like me

WTF

DAMN CREEPY CAN OR NOT!?!?

some more now 7th month

T.T

i don't even dare to look into her eyes la

and i did something really dramatic man

i dug for my sunglasses and quickly wore them

i also cannot explain why i am so afraid of her

but imagine your so called "clone" shopping next to you

SCARY OR NOT!?!?

oh my tian

*faints*

and when i thought that is enough of weird happenings in a day,

i came back to realise,

the online friend that offered me a job opportunity to work in the upcoming IT fair,

IS CHARIS'S SECONDARY SCHOOL FRIEND

*faints again*

WTH

WHY ALMOST ALL MY ONLINE FRIENDS ARE ALL SOMEWHAT CONNECTED TO ME?

take a very good example,

Kazaf is also connected to me through weixian

LOL!

i finally revealed it

HAHAHAHA

wth

i think my world is going bonkers already

SOMEONE PLEASE AUTO FOCUS IT FOR ME!!!

P.S. photo owed,

happy birthday kevin

2008-08-10T14:33:00.007+08:00

on 10 of august 1988,

a wonderful baby arrived on this world.

his name was KEVIN NG YONG KIAT

three years later, another baby arrived in this world

and her name was BRENDA KOO QIAO HUI

they both don't know the existence of each other

until a certain day they were introduced to each other

at hong kah north Chinese orchestra

he had been a loyal friend to brenda

and very good brother too

and today, after living 20 years on earth,

it is once his birthday again

i realized i never taken any picture with you, you know kevin?

neh mind,

since we are going out on 13 to celebrate us august babies's birthdays,

i am sure not to let you off!

MUHAHAHAHAHA!

so before i give you your actual present on 13,

here's a little something first

祝你和大嫂永远甜甜蜜蜜，早日开枝散叶！！

哈哈哈哈哈哈！

happy birthday,

my dear friend, kevin...

2008-08-09T23:55:00.003+08:00

before the day comes to an end,

happy birthday singapore!

although my mood isn't the best when typing this post,

i still wanted to wish our country happy 43 birthday

i really don't know what i am doing man

am i making things worse?

it just started to make some improvements

then because of my insecurtiy,

i made it worse then before

brenda, are you a fool?

like what i wrote in my msn personal message.

"DUMBASS.FOOL.IDIOT.ASSHOLE damn it, you just don't get it"

i really cannot get you to see

what i really feel

i hate to pretend i don't care

but what can i do?

i am not a person that takes initiatives

and you may not be one who does too

maybe i should just forget it

and we both go back to our own worlds

holy virgin

2008-08-09T19:50:00.002+08:00

wow

i am so shagged now

just came back from plaza singapura

waited 2 hours alone for kisa

first time i walked up and down the escaltor of shopping centre

with nothing to do man

after she arrived,

we went to buy her cargo pants

then went on to take some french soup and crepe

when were at that,

charis told me something,

Guy A : " why i cannot touch you? you think you some holy virgin meh!"

Girl A : " yeah. maybe i mother mary recarnate!"

HAHAHAHA!

ok

lame

-.-"

haiya

i am in a lost now

i also why am i doing all these

to cover up i guess?

whatever la.

*********************

is it me,

or are kazaf you ignoring me?

maybe i am too sensitive ba

but i really don't want to lose a friend

what did i do wrong?

please tell me..

stay tuned!

2008-08-09T11:46:00.003+08:00

yo people!

i may be really busy today so post may come quite late

so before i leave house

i shall blog a little first

for those who are dying of boredom and needs something to read

MUHAHAHAHA

wth

-.-"

HEY...

did you all notice something?

i really like using this,

wth

the a

-.-

or a -.-"

HAHA!

habit already

ok la people

i need go get ready to go out already

before my mum screams at me again

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

ADIOAS!

P.S. photobooth pic,

new blog song

2008-08-09T01:13:00.002+08:00

was reading hafiiz's blog

AND I AM SO ADDICTED TO THE SONG

i was already addicted the last time i heard it

but i thought it was not very nice to take people's blog song and put as yours right?

BUT I CANNOT TA HAN READY

I WANT IT IN MY BLOG!!!!!

sorry hafiiz for ks - ing

cause i just love the song too much le

:)

080808

2008-08-08T23:52:00.005+08:00

*AFTERNOON*

today is the

8th OF AUGUEST 2008!

what so great about it you ask?

IT IS 080808 LA!

NICE RIGHT!

LUCKY DAY!

later ask mummy go buy 4D

LOL!

-.-

for non chinese, 8 pronounced in chinese is call ba,

which sounds like fa,

which means posperity.

HAIYA,

in short,

8=ba=fa=prosperity

simple right?

-.-"

Not only that, today is the opening of Olympics

wth. look at the size of the stadium -.-"

gong gong should be super excited now

he waited for a whole year to watch this

hope this year's one won't disappoint him

:D:D

had really boring lesson today man

damn it, "edge of chaos"

major =.="""""""""""""""""""

it was talking about the chaos theory,

a theory that is refered by man to predict certain dynamic systems

TSK

shall not bore you all with more theory

but for those who are interested to find out more,

which i highly doubt anyone will,

please proceed to

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chaos_theory

**************************************

*night*

was trying to send the hilton hotel talk rj just now

mailbox was full so i cannot send through mail

-.-"

i literally spent 20 mins clearing my email

guess that teaches me a lesson

DELETE YOUR MAIL AFTER READING

oh man.

it is the same routine man.

select all,

delete

permernetly deleted

x_x

wth

watched the olympic opening just now

really like national day parade la

ONLY

100 times better

-.-

they had damn cute fireworks la!

all smiley faces one

like this >>> :)

CUTE RIGHT!?!?

speaking of fireworks,

there is fireworks today at the esplanade there too la

but no one wants to go

so cannot go

T.T

ok la.

shall end here

before it passes 12

cause by then it will be tomorrow's post right?

haha

P.S. i have decided to reveal the photobooth pics one by one with every post.
watch out for them! LOL! XD

LOL! me trying to kill ralph. he asked me to do it -.-"

oh i forgot to mention in my last post, the theme for that day's party was back to school.

So that depends why we were in school uniforms right?

MUHAHAHAHA

CIAO!

:D:D

sorry people

2008-08-07T23:57:00.007+08:00

i have just realized something

once you stop blogging,

you kind of get lazy to blog again

or is it only me?

lol

maybe ba

today i skipped lesson again

over slept

-.-"

but i went to school specially to give horny yeo his pressize la!

so nice right?

wth

-.-"

then we went to cwp's mac with charis, weixian and junhu to discuss about the chalet

I TELL YOU MAN

NEVER EVER BE THE ORGANISER OF A CHALET

damn pek chek

or maybe cause i want our last gathering to be perfect?

then went on to sheng siong to check out the prices

JUNHU WAS LIKE LOUD SPEAKER LIKE THAT LA!

blast until don't know where

LOL!

but damn funny la he,

good entertainment

HAHA!

weixian machiam emo one corner never talk one

then come on msn so active

-.-"

LOL!

so we walked around, played a fool

and found out that....

WE ARE OVER BUDGET ALREADY LA

Zzz

then still got people don't want to pay

-.-

wanted to blog yesterday

but like i said,

was too lazy

BUT YESTERDAY WAS FUN FUN FUN LA!

we had confession time

and we all laughed damn hard on alot of confessions la

AND WE CAMWHORED AWAY!!

WHEEEEEEEE~

i wore a dress that day

feel so weird la

maybe too long never wear ready

-.-

shall post some up for you all to anticipate the rest

will have to wait if you want to see more

cause ima feeling damn lazy

renuka,me,kisa and ralph

farhana,ralph,vincent,estelle,me and jenn

us again! :D

bestie and me! :D:D

woah my face -.-"

my shagged look after all the photo taking LOL!

of course,

after the effort of dressing up,

must zi lian abit right?

LOL!

wth

-.-"

pardon the unglam background

lol

was in my grandma's room taking the photos

LOL

and my favourite photo of the day!!
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I LIKE IT DAMN MUCH LA!

lol.

happy anticipating for the next post ba!

if i am not lazy

HAHA!!

XD

P.S. my hp batt was too low to take photos in sheng siong today. Kisa took some but i am not sure whether she will post it up on her blog. For more information, please proceed to http://www.watashiwas-kisa-desu.blogspot.com/.

P.P.S WTH! WANTED TO BLOG BEFORE 12 BUT I MISSED IT AGAIN! LOL! too lazy to finish my blog post in time la. SORRY PEOPLE!

happy happy day

2008-08-05T19:11:00.005+08:00

wth

i did not skip lesson in the end

daddy said no way

-.-"

ok so i stayed on

AND IT IS THE WORSE DECISION OF MY LIFE

THE FACI WAS DAMN FARKED UP

oh man what a bitch

ask any W35Eans and they will so agree with me

Zzzz

ARGHHHH

don't want to talk about her already

make my blood boil only

Sheesh i am feeling freakishly sleepy right now

but my mind just can't stop running wild

-.-

my mind is like a independent mechanism from my body

I WANT TO SLEEP LA

dumbass

:):):):):):):):):):):):)

don't ask me why i add so many smiley faces here

i also don't know

i am just feeling very happy now

cause

HAIYA a lot things la

:D:D

everything seems right today

except for the farked up faci

and my sudden disappearance of my dad

which we eventually realized he was sleeping

thats why he did not pick up the phone

-.-

HAPPY DAY FOR CHIKAKO!

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

COUNTDOWN: 11 more days

what am i going to do on that day?

no plans yet man

the most go shopping alone again

which is not a bad idea after all

:D:D

HAPPY!!~

LALALALALALALALA~

TIME TO PON

2008-08-05T10:05:00.004+08:00

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

we decided to pon today's lesson!

the faci is so -.-" man

HAHA

i skipped so many lessons already

guess i am not a very good girl after all eh?

XD

wth

WAAAAAAAAAAA

but i still need to go over to plaza singapura later

Zzzz

dumbass gave me the wrong prescription for my contact lens

my left is super blur

-.-"

tell you all something ok?

haha

I FORGOT TO BRING MY LAPTOP CHARGER TO SCHOOL TODAY!

and my macbook's batt life only left with 18%

LOLLOLLOL

but we are ponning so i guess it is alright?

:X

AH HAHA

oh man,

this better not get exposed to my aunt, bro or mum

if not they will love me loads

NOT!

:X

thank you :D

2008-08-04T23:53:00.002+08:00

Firstly,

my purpose of doing this post,

is to thank someone

a totally stranger that showered me alot of care and concern

without even knowing each other well

thanks kazaf

SEE I SO GOOD

THANK YOU HERE MAN

XD

but i really still quite startled that we are somehow connected through him la

a person that i didn't expect

HAHA

it is scary one ok?

so creepy that i have to include it in this post

HAHA

i must say i am very disappointed with a lot of things and people today

i guess i am too paraniod ba

EH WAIT

don't tell me i am having

having

HAVING
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MENOPAUSE!?!?!?

NOOOOOOOOOOOO~~

haha

just kidding

XD

sigh

i think i should give myself a slack man

thinking too much and stressing myself out too much

shall let all things FLY AWAY!

and the all mighty chikako will return to her palace of sweet dreams

ok

lame

-.-"

NIGHTS PEOPLE! :D:D

freedom

2008-08-04T18:17:00.004+08:00

POST REMOVED BECAUSE I REALIZED IT WAS ONE OF MY MANY ACTS OF WILLFULNESS.

I APOLOGISE TO MUMMY FOR SAYING ALL THAT

I THINK YOU ARE STILL THE BEST MUM EVER

2008-08-04T14:58:00.002+08:00

我的存在对你来说真的这么无谓吗？

a sincere wish

2008-08-04T00:14:00.003+08:00

Dear………….

i have just realized something today

and it has devastated me a lot

i really have no idea what to say

you really start to frighten me

your actions

your behaviour

your character...

so many things i believed in you are now in doubt

i really don't know whether you speak the truth

but i still care for you

and that concern is genuine

i don't want you to let your fantasies consume you

we live in a practical world

and fantasizing only brings us to doom

and never to happiness

don't dwell on it anymore

why not try to let go and look at reality

it may not be as bad as you think it is,

in your little darkness of denial

i may write things about how unfair my life is at times

and how much i hate my family at times

but as time passes,

i realized that my family is the closest to my heart

亲情可贵啊

this is a fact that many denies

家家有本难念的经

i totally agree that at times whatever your family does will seem unfair to you

but who are the closest to you in the end?

it will eventually be your family

i hope you will truly understand the meaning of this post dedicated to you

i am really not trying to put you down

like i mentioned above,

my care for you is genuine

i really wish that you will be happy

even if you might think that we are not very close

and i have no right to comment

I still think there is a need to do this

i may not know anything

but one thing i know for sure

you are suffering

and it pains me to see you this way

believe me or not,

it hurts

treasure yourself

for then you will truly taste the sweetness of bliss.

Sincerely wishing,

chikako

dream

2008-08-03T11:56:00.004+08:00

i had a very weird dream last night

it kind of made me waking up feeling...........

yeah, hurt.

i told myself,

"today's boon kiat's(my bro) birthday, i should stay happy..."

but it kind of gets into me

what happens if it comes true?

i had mentioned before that my dreams do come true at times

i am really afraid now

afraid that......

i don't want to...

sigh

it happened alot of times already

i don't want it to happen again

why is it always this unfair?

how many times must i get hurt because of these matters?

i know it is totally stupid and bimbotic,

to always talk about matters of the heart

but this is the only place i can do it...

P.S 我只能默默的看着你去爱另一个人

signing off at 12.04 pm

new blog song

2008-08-03T00:54:00.003+08:00

just changed my blog song

really old song

and very cheena too

but really nice

LOL!

enjoy

:)

another killer rj

2008-08-02T11:44:00.004+08:00

I AM CURRENTLY ADDICTED TO PIANO SONGS!

especially those sad and soothing type

going crazy over them man!

@.@~~

anybody intro me more?

:D

i have not done my rj for the Hilton hotel talk yet

so ZZZZZ la

here's the quesiton...

In your opinion, how well do you now know about the Hotel industry, and how has the talk prepared you for it? (min. 300 words)

MINIMUM OF 300 WORDS LEH!!

the person in charge must be mad

i don't even know how to start la

T.T

stupid shawn

ask him how to do then he give me a smiley face

-.-

dumbass leh he

anyway, i have started playing florensia

abit like maple

and abit like runscape

i keep getting myself lost

-.-

guess i just suck at gaming

Zzzz

W35E's chalet is coming very soon!

so is my birthday

HEEHEE

XD

i can't wait man!

and by the way,

vincent,

there is no male lolita la.

LOL!

i don't know what do you call those male wear

but it is definitely not lolita

XD

LALALA

i am going mad with the rj

two hours and it is still empty

damn

i must really get working

so long people!

signing off at 11.54 am